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Well, I never knew this room really applied to me but I was fooling myself. I must have magically thought that my scratching my arms and hitting myself was something else then "self harm". I have severe fear of abandonment especially by God. When I have an really bad day I become afraid that...

Does anyone know of a place online that you can find actual physical meetings for support of people with BPD? I am really struggling and need help! Thanks!

Ok, so you know that with BPD we tend to have black and white thoughts.. like I am bad and he is good. Someone is always all good and the other is all bad. How come i get so angry when God tries to get me to look between the lines??? It absolutely makes me so mad that maybe it can be in the...

I am just posting b/c it is almost midnight and I am still awake. Ever have those nights where your afraid to go to sleep? Where you feel like your the only one up this late? Like everyone else gets those happy dreams and restfull sleep? Wishing you were doing everything right so that you...

Hi, I am new to this room. I have been too prideful to admit that I am depressed. I have so many other issues going on at the same time. I finally have an appointment at the end of the month to get med's for the depression and lack of sleep. How do you get through those days where you are so...

I get so tired of people who paint ugly pictures of those who have BPD. They talk about us like we are monsters and have absolutely no compassion on us. I didn't choose to have BPD. When I was trying to survive my childhood I didn't say "hey, let's think another way so I can have years of...

The Lord poured out his spirit upon me last July. Since then I have been having vision & dreams plus prophesy. I am going through a healing now from past childhood trauma but it is also hindering the way I interpret the visions and dreams. I have a few things below that I can use some help with...

I have posted here before, last time being March. I have been involved in a group therapy program for survivors of sexual abuse. We have been working in this really great book "shelter from the storm: Hope for survivors of sexual abuse". I am sad b/c the group will be ending soon and I don't...

I have been having dreams and visions for a while now and they are symbolic sometimes. I need help with the following... Can you please tell me what these mean (spiritual meaning): 1. Eye of God- is this spiritual understanding? 2. Bronze 3. snakes 4. cow 5. fire 6. daisy's 7. rainbows All...

I was diagnosed with BPD almost a year ago and I am now still trying to accept the fact that I have this illness. I am going through the usual anger and fear of BPD. I have just read the book My Enemy, Myself and it really depressed me. I also ordered and yet to read: "Sometimes I act Crazy"...

I just joined a Therapy group for Survivors of Sexual abuse. I am nervous about it as I do not know what to expect. Is anyone part of a therapy group or support group? Thanks!

So, I was diagnosed with BPD about a year ago and I have been in therapy with my Pastor who is a counselor. I have been molested, gang raped and severly abused phisically, mentally, verbally and emotionally all before the age of 13. I can not take med's b/c i am pregnant and will be nursing soon...

I realize I have PTSD. I have all the symptoms except the nightmares. I am at the very beginning of my healing with God. I thought that all I was recovering from was a gang rape at 7 and physical, emotional and verbal abuse by my step father. (not that any of that is taken lightly!) But...

Hi All! I am 37 years old and am working through my past pain with God. I tried to do it without him but it didn't work. Today God gave me some of the most beautiful gifts of encouragement and love and I want to share them with you all! I hope that "God's Love will give you roots so you can...

I am in therapy to work out my past. There are some parts of my past I have no memory of and especially a certian relative of mine. My mom has lots of family pictures of him but i have no memories of him being there. Are there any of you who have had repressed memories of abuse and have gone...

Hi, I am a survivor of childhood abuse by an alcholic step-father. For seven years of my childhood I endured his abuse among other abuses prior to him. I built all these elaborate walls around my memories and I have all of these defense systems set up to protect myself. I actually never...