Thank you so much.
I really appreciate the effort you are putting in as you are astute enough to see that I am disturbed by what I'm reading here for the reasons I have mentioned. I really do appreciate you trying to help me and protect my psyche at the same time!
Despite this, I do study history and I'm aware of the comments and assertions from scholars and lay people alike, regarding the accuracy of the bible as it pertains to who wrote it, when, why some books were included, some removed etc. In my mind, this is not controversial but indicative of critical thinking skills as it pertains to all historical writings, and the provenance of art etc. So, I'm not offended by the questions or the search for consistency etc.
What I haven't done, though, is obtained a satisfactory answer as to where we're all getting the information to confirm scepticism is warranted, to what degree and to what, if any or all, books of the bible this should apply.
So, can I ask: are our claims based on a certain writing? a certain scholar? a certain timeframe? a collection of writings/scholars/timeframes? Where can I go to research and come to any conclusions with the assistance of the Holy Spirit?
Tyndale House has a pass which can be obtained so that I can read ancient texts. I'm not sure how helpful this is going to be for me, though, without the reliance on third-party guidance re: where to start and understanding that what is accessible may not be complete to a lay person etc.
Tools for researchers – Tyndale House
I don't even read bible translations before 1900s, due to my concern that they have been edited, so how far back do I need to go? Do I need to learn Greek? Aramaic? Farsi? Hebrew?
At this stage, I feel like Indiana Jones searching for the Ark of the Covenant that everyone else seems to have already found?
Thanks so much for your help x