Losing my salvation and anxiety

I feel that way sometimes.
I try to tell myself that if I was not saved, it wouldn't matter at all to me.
Also. Why would the devil torment me if he didn't already own me.
He knows who's not his and is focused on them.

Jesus is the friend of sinners. He offers them hope and forgiveness and new life. The Holy spirit always. Wants us to get closer to Jesus. You only mention going back to church. But how’ out reading your Bible and praying for strength. He has that to give. Part of growing up is overcoming our fears. You also need to be fed from the HS at church to stay strong.

Was designing a poster for church this morning and thought about you. Hope this gives you some inspiration and comfort.

There is nothing you can do to stop God from loving you. You may resist His love, walk away or even reject it.

I have strayed from God many times and maybe you have too.

But if you turn back to Him, you will always be welcomed with open arms

"I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness" (Jeremiah 31:3)

Will pray. But as encouragement, the BIble tells us:

That when we wander God will accept us back:

Jas 5:19-20 Brethren, if anyone among you wanders from the truth, and someone turns him back, let him know that he who turns a sinner from the error of his way will save a soul from death and cover a multitude of sins.

This is because the cross covers our lifetime of sins, from the point of birth to death.

Heb 9:27-28 And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgment, so Christ was offered once to bear the sins of many.

We should not sin, but if we do, Jesus is our advocate, he speaks on our behalf. He is faithful (sticks by us) and just (does not deprive us of life)

1Jn 1:9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness....1Jn 2:1 My little children, these things I write to you, so that you may not sin. And if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.

Your feelings can go up and down, but you need to quote the Bible into the atmosphere.

Hebrews 13: 5 For He Himself has said, "I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU."