A rock and a hard place

jonojim1337 · Jun 9, 2024

So it appears my search is getting to an end. It doesn't matter how much I search, I just get to the same place. A complete and utter hatred for everyone and everything in this world.

First, I hate the people who cannot read the four characters of YHWH. They claim to be professors and experts, and they try to educate me, even though this should be obvious to anyone with half a brain, what the four characters mean. I wish them sickness and death, because their presence is just regurgiating.

Then I hate the people of this country. I know them on a level few people know about them. They are disgusting beings, with less of a soul than an animal.

In fact, I am so disgusted by this situation and the people around me, that I would rather die than to continue being a witness to this.

Now when Christ was in the world, all you had to do was to say his name basically and somebody would kill you. That's alot more merciful than my current situation.

AlexB23 · Jun 9, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
So it appears my search is getting to an end. It doesn't matter how much I search, I just get to the same place. A complete and utter hatred for everyone and everything in this world.

First, I hate the people who cannot read the four characters of YHWH. They claim to be professors and experts, and they try to educate me, even though this should be obvious to anyone with half a brain, what the four characters mean. I wish them sickness and death, because their presence is just regurgiating.

Then I hate the people of this country. I know them on a level few people know about them. They are disgusting beings, with less of a soul than an animal.

In fact, I am so disgusted by this situation and the people around me, that I would rather die than to continue being a witness to this.

Now when Christ was in the world, all you had to do was to say his name basically and somebody would kill you. That's alot more merciful than my current situation.

Do not feel despair my friend. Yes, I dislike some people in the US as well, especially both parties. You are from Sweden, and I'd rather have a Nordic system of economy, so you guys are living better than the US. Every country has its issues, we just have to be patient.

jacks · Jun 9, 2024

You're not alone, many have felt that way. Dostoyevsky even spoke of a similar feeling in The Brothers Karamazov.

I love humanity . . . but I can’t help being surprised at myself: the more I love humanity in general, the less I love men in particular, I mean, separately, as separate individuals. In my dreams . . . I am very often passionately determined to save humanity, and I might quite likely have sacrificed my life for my fellow-creatures, if for some reason it has been suddenly demanded of me, and yet I’m quite incapable of living with anyone in one room for two days together, and I know that from experience. As soon as anyone comes close to me, his personality begins to oppress my vanity and restrict my freedom. I’m capable of hating the best men in twenty-four hours: one because he sits too long over his dinner, another because he has a cold in the head and keeps blowing his nose. But, on the other hand, it invariably happened that the more I hated men individually, the more ardent became my love for humanity at large.”

This excerpt was later poked and prodded and turned into this frequently revised iteration that we know today: “I love humanity, it’s people I can’t stand.”

Only through Christs Love can we get past the human tendency to hate. I pray that the the Lord helps us see past the person to the spirit Christ loves.

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

AlexB23 said:
Do not feel despair my friend. Yes, I dislike some people in the US as well, especially both parties. You are from Sweden, and I'd rather have a Nordic system of economy, so you guys are living better than the US. Every country has its issues, we just have to be patient.

No, you wouldn't wanna live here. They lure people here with their material blessings, but inside they are the most disgusting POS you can imagine.

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

jacks said:
You're not alone, many have felt that way. Dostoyevsky even spoke of a similar feeling in The Brothers Karamazov.

I love humanity . . . but I can’t help being surprised at myself: the more I love humanity in general, the less I love men in particular, I mean, separately, as separate individuals. In my dreams . . . I am very often passionately determined to save humanity, and I might quite likely have sacrificed my life for my fellow-creatures, if for some reason it has been suddenly demanded of me, and yet I’m quite incapable of living with anyone in one room for two days together, and I know that from experience. As soon as anyone comes close to me, his personality begins to oppress my vanity and restrict my freedom. I’m capable of hating the best men in twenty-four hours: one because he sits too long over his dinner, another because he has a cold in the head and keeps blowing his nose. But, on the other hand, it invariably happened that the more I hated men individually, the more ardent became my love for humanity at large.”

This excerpt was later poked and prodded and turned into this frequently revised iteration that we know today: “I love humanity, it’s people I can’t stand.”

Only through Christs Love can we get past the human tendency to hate. I pray that the the Lord helps us see past the person to the spirit Christ loves.

What's funny is that I have failed in everything at life and will probably fail here too. I don't want to hope because I don't want to get disappointed.

AlexB23 · Jun 10, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
No, you wouldn't wanna live here. They lure people here with their material blessings, but inside they are the most disgusting POS you can imagine.

So, you are saying that Sweden is woke (I do not like using the term though)?

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

AlexB23 said:
So, you are saying that Sweden is woke (I do not like using the term though)?

You will often hear it being said here that depression is a "folk disease", and while the Swedes definitely are depressed, I don't think it's the root of their problems. Narcissism is really the thing that plagues this country and this folk.

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

Undoubtebly my sentiment is one of the heads of the Beast. And while the Beast is often revealed, my identity in Christ is not. I don't really know what to do from here.

AlexB23 · Jun 10, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
You will often hear it being said here that depression is a "folk disease", and while the Swedes definitely are depressed, I don't think it's the root of their problems. Narcissism is really the thing that plagues this country and this folk.

This ties in well with a devotional. Narcissism plagues the US as well, so we both have issues in our countries. A solution might be co-owned housing.

The concept of co-habitation, where individuals live together in a shared community, can be seen as an extension of these biblical principles. A hybrid between private and communal living, such as Vienna's co-owned condominiums, can help create a balance between personal space and community connection. This model can positively impact society by fostering stronger relationships, reducing social isolation, and promoting sustainability through shared resources.

The potential impacts on mental health could include increased feelings of belonging, reduced stress, and improved overall well-being. By sharing resources and supporting one another, individuals in a communal living arrangement may experience less financial anxiety and more opportunities for social interaction and emotional support.

From June 3 Devotional (made partially with Mistral 7B AI, and partially by me, with discernment):

Communal for Christ

Hello folks. Today we will be analyzing Acts and Community, which is a companion post to the news article below. https://www.christianforums.com/threads/could-vienna%E2%80%99s-approach-to-affordable-housing-work-in-california.8298706/#post-77660542 Date June 3, 2024 | Communal for Christ...

www.christianforums.com

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

AlexB23 said:
This ties in well with a devotional. Narcissism plagues the US as well, so we both have issues in our countries. A solution might be co-owned housing.

The concept of co-habitation, where individuals live together in a shared community, can be seen as an extension of these biblical principles. A hybrid between private and communal living, such as Vienna's co-owned condominiums, can help create a balance between personal space and community connection. This model can positively impact society by fostering stronger relationships, reducing social isolation, and promoting sustainability through shared resources.

The potential impacts on mental health could include increased feelings of belonging, reduced stress, and improved overall well-being. By sharing resources and supporting one another, individuals in a communal living arrangement may experience less financial anxiety and more opportunities for social interaction and emotional support.

From June 3 Devotional (made partially with Mistral 7B AI, and partially by me, with discernment):

Communal for Christ

Hello folks. Today we will be analyzing Acts and Community, which is a companion post to the news article below. https://www.christianforums.com/threads/could-vienna%E2%80%99s-approach-to-affordable-housing-work-in-california.8298706/#post-77660542 Date June 3, 2024 | Communal for Christ...

www.christianforums.com

Well, I had a "community housing project" in my house you could say, it ended up with me getting stabbed in the back through the lung almost three inches. The person wasn't a Swede to his outer appearance, but his personality was every bit of it. So I'm not sure about that.

Also I don't know what is wrong with these people, but they use half a bottle of detergent for one wash.

AlexB23 · Jun 10, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
Well, I had a "community housing project" in my house you could say, it ended up with me getting stabbed in the back through the lung almost three inches. The person wasn't a Swede to his outer appearance, but his personality was every bit of it. So I'm not sure about that.

Also I don't know what is wrong with these people, but they use half a bottle of detergent for one wash.

Woah, that sounds dark, and hopefully the man went to jail. Was the person an immigrant? I do not live in community housing, luckily. Also, for laundry, I use one tide pod and wash one load of laundry per week (everything on cold, not sorted).

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

AlexB23 said:
Woah, that sounds dark, and hopefully the man went to jail. Was the person an immigrant? I do not live in community housing, luckily. Also, for laundry, I use one tide pod and wash one load of laundry per week (everything on cold, not sorted).

Well I had the opportunity to get something around $30k but that would mean some 8 years in prison for him and I don't think $30k for me and 8 years for him was a fair deal so I laid it down. I think he was born in Africa but his personality was all Swedish.

AlexB23 · Jun 10, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
Well I had the opportunity to get something around $30k but that would mean some 8 years in prison for him and I don't think $30k for me and 8 years for him was a fair deal so I laid it down. I think he was born in Africa but his personality was all Swedish.

You should have taken it, however, it is commendable that you gave this guy mercy (pray that he becomes converted to Christianity). What defines the Swedish personality, if I may ask? Say, what are the big 5 things that Swedes have in their personality?

Halbhh · Jun 10, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
I don't really know what to do from here.

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Invaluably, Christ told us what to do, no matter the situation we find ourselves in and especially in the Sermon on the Mount in Matthew, chapters 5 through 7. A thing you'd want to begin immediately is to pray the prayer He instructed us to pray for each day: Bible Gateway passage: Matthew 6:5-15 - New International Version
You can believe while you pray this prayer that God will answer it -- since this is the most perfect prayer, the words from Christ Himself!

After you pray this prayer, then begin reading what to do -- just take your time and read some each day and dwell on the words: https://biblehub.com/niv/matthew/5.htm Some things will be clear immediately, the things you are ready to learn now, and that's part of the wonderful nature of His words -- that each time we read with real listening, we learn the next things we need to learn.

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

AlexB23 said:
You should have taken it, however, it is commendable that you gave this guy mercy (pray that he becomes converted to Christianity). What defines the Swedish personality, if I may ask? Say, what are the big 5 things that Swedes have in their personality?

Yeah well ironically he was baptised Ethiopian Orthodox but has since converted to Islam and thus knows better than anyone else

The signs of a narcissist is constant lying, blaming others, living in a fantasy world to support their innocence, never taking any advice, stealing from your back, fooling etc. The Swedes are known as blue eyed because it's easy to fool them by appealing to their narcissism.
I'd say he was very "effeminate" as well like the way a woman would manipulate you.

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

Halbhh said:
'
Invaluably, Christ told us what to do, no matter the situation we find ourselves in and especially in the Sermon on the Mount in Matthew, chapters 5 through 7. A thing you'd want to begin immediately is to pray the prayer He instructed us to pray for each day: Bible Gateway passage: Matthew 6:5-15 - New International Version
You can believe while you pray this prayer that God will answer it -- since this is the most perfect prayer, the words from Christ Himself!

After you pray this prayer, then begin reading what to do -- just take your time and read some each day and dwell on the words: Matthew 5 NIV Some things will be clear immediately, the things you are ready to learn now, and that's part of the wonderful nature of His words -- that each time we read with real listening, we learn the next things we need to learn.

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

True, but I get fed up with my mind going in circles, and that makes me not want to pray, because that is an act of the mind, and the mind just makes me want to puke. But at the same time one needs patience to overcome the Beast and that is a good practice in patience. I find that just observing the thought, if you have the patience, works as well.

Halbhh · Jun 10, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
True, but I get fed up with my mind going in circles, and that makes me not want to pray, because that is an act of the mind, and the mind just makes me want to puke. But at the same time one needs patience to overcome the Beast and that is a good practice in patience. I find that just observing the thought, if you have the patience, works as well.

I've found it's good to pray this prayer in the morning. (and one could pray it even just after they wake up)

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

Halbhh said:
I've found it's good to pray this prayer in the morning. (and one could pray it even just after they wake up)

I'm currently asking What is the kingdom? Because Thy kingdom come, doesn't actually say anything to me

Halbhh · Jun 10, 2024

jonojim1337 said:
I'm currently asking What is the kingdom? Because Thy kingdom come, doesn't actually say anything to me

"Your Kingdom come,
your will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven."

To me this is us asking to be in God's Kingdom -- we long for it. And also that we want His way -- instead of just our own ways. We want His better way of life, we want to do His will, His perfect good way of life. Saying these words we are aligning ourselves to Him, His way, when we mean the words.

It's a hope, a prayer, a longing, and a path.

jonojim1337 · Jun 10, 2024

Halbhh said:
"Your Kingdom come,
your will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven."

To me this is us asking to be in God's Kingdom -- we long for it. And also that we want His way -- instead of just our own ways. We want His better way of life, we want to do His will, His perfect good way of life. Saying these words we are aligning ourselves to Him, His way, when we mean the words.

It's a hope, a prayer, a longing, and a path.

My life is completely and utterly disgusting, and I hate waking up. So it's not like I'm caught between two ways

No, it's all puke.

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