I AM TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED STOMACH PROBLEMS TIRED TIRED TIRED

Kostilaks said:

Days ago, someone spitted outside. After some minutes, I passed from that spot and maybe touched it with my shoe. Many times when I touch my shoes, I wash my hands just in case.

Today I put on my shoes and ocd was telling me

ocd: go wash your hands because maybe that human had covid and you may spread the virus and Gods may punish you.

I did not want to wash my hands but I was afraid of this so I washed them. I thought I was washing them because I was afraid of Gods in case I spread the virus and not because ocd was telling me to do it.

I washed my hands and I think, 2 years ago, I made a promise to Christian God about not washing my hands compulsively. I tried to make the promise in order to fight ocd. What if other Gods who do not care about my ocd accepted the promise?

I AM [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ING TIRED! i do not WANT TO BELIEVE TO ANYONE!

every day almost every minute, I pray for every single intrusive thoughts i get thoughts liek

intrusive htoughts: punishments, deals with Gods, promises etc

and I always repeat myself that they were thoughts without my will.

YOU KNOW WHAT? I AM [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ING [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ED OFF!

I DO NOT WANT TO BELIEVE TO ANYONE!

I WANNA BE FREE AND HAVE SEXUAL THOUGHTST AND SMOKE WITHOUT ANY GUILT!

I HAVE A DEPRESSION OK? I CANT HELP MYSELF!

i have stomach problems because of my anxiety. Sin helps me feel better. OK?

do not you dare threaten me about hell!

Click to expand...

Many enjoy sin but sin leads to death and causes heartache, pain and suffering for others not just yourself.

9 Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, 10 nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. 11 And such were some of you. But you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus and by the Spirit of our God.

Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him

We no longer look to be served. We look to serve and give our lives for others. No longer fight for privilege, influence and status. We esteem others better than ourselves and put their interests above our own.

Peace be with all those in the body of Christ

I think you would benefit from speaking with your general practitioner. They may be able to prescribe medication to help with your anxiety and your depression. They may also be able to refer you to a specialist in exposure and response therapy (ERT) to help you gain confidence in responding appropriately and effectively to your obsessions and compulsions.

Kostilaks said:

Days ago, someone spitted outside. After some minutes, I passed from that spot and maybe touched it with my shoe. Many times when I touch my shoes, I wash my hands just in case.

Today I put on my shoes and ocd was telling me

ocd: go wash your hands because maybe that human had covid and you may spread the virus and Gods may punish you.

I did not want to wash my hands but I was afraid of this so I washed them. I thought I was washing them because I was afraid of Gods in case I spread the virus and not because ocd was telling me to do it.

I washed my hands and I think, 2 years ago, I made a promise to Christian God about not washing my hands compulsively. I tried to make the promise in order to fight ocd. What if other Gods who do not care about my ocd accepted the promise?

I AM [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ING TIRED! i do not WANT TO BELIEVE TO ANYONE!

every day almost every minute, I pray for every single intrusive thoughts i get thoughts liek

intrusive htoughts: punishments, deals with Gods, promises etc

and I always repeat myself that they were thoughts without my will.

YOU KNOW WHAT? I AM [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ING [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ED OFF!

I DO NOT WANT TO BELIEVE TO ANYONE!

I WANNA BE FREE AND HAVE SEXUAL THOUGHTST AND SMOKE WITHOUT ANY GUILT!

I HAVE A DEPRESSION OK? I CANT HELP MYSELF!

i have stomach problems because of my anxiety. Sin helps me feel better. OK?

do not you dare threaten me about hell!

Click to expand...

It seems to me that all this has stemmed from being taught of a fear-filled faith in which God is out to get you and condemn you over every little thing you do, Kostilaks. And that is incorrect. I'm sorry it has led you to this much misery with OCD, but, I can tell you that just giving up believing in Christ is not going to help you. There's no need to be making all these promises to God about not washing your hands or returning home to grab something in the first place. What is compelling you to keep making those promises that you always speak of?

And here I was going to recommend flax seed.

This is a job for prayer, and your doctor, in that order.

I'm so sorry you're going through this horrible thing.

I'm really sorry. This is definitely something you need treatment for. Have you talked to a doctor about this?

Kostilaks said:

I WANNA BE FREE AND HAVE SEXUAL THOUGHTST AND SMOKE WITHOUT ANY GUILT!

Click to expand...

I don't think smoking is a sin; so there's no need to worry about that. It's a good idea not to smoke because it is bad for you, but right now, when you're going through such a difficult time, is not the time to try to quit. Take one thing at a time and don't feel guilty about smoking.

As others are saying, please seek medical help. Your OCD at such a level that it's really interfering with your health.

And again as others have said, it's true: sinning won't help you feel better. The reason we avoid sinning isn't because God just wants to put rules on us, but it's because He knows what's best for us. He has infinite knowledge. He knows what you're going through. And He knows that sinning isn't going to help you feel better.

I think you're feeling guilty about intrusive thoughts, but if we don't accept those thoughts, if we don't want them around, then we aren't responsible for them. That's like saying you're responsible if someone punches you in the face as you walk down the street. That's not your fault. So don't take those intrusive thoughts to be you sinning.

Also, please stop using this forum. It's not that we here don't want to help you, but it's because we can only do so much and you really need professional help. You aren't going to feel better by using this platform because right now you're seeking assurance and if we keep answering you, we aren't helping you but rather encouraging you to use this

God is not a God who is eager to punish and zap us every time we mess up. He is patient and kind. He is offering us a free gift of salvation through Jesus Christ alone. Trust Jesus forgives you all your sins. Follow Him. You won't find true peace any place else but Jesus Christ because if you don't fully trust Jesus and not works (aka sinning only a certain amount of times, believing baptism saves you, believing that you're only saved if you do a certain level of good works, believing baptism saves you, etc.), then you won't be at peace because you wouldn't be saved. If it we were saved by works, then we'd have something to boast about. "Ooh, I only did this much sin" or "I didn't sin that way" or "I got baptised and you didn't." It's by faith, not works. Works come as a result of being saved, but you aren't saved by works. The way to true salvation is Jesus. You must trust Him alone. He's taken away your past, present, and future sins. There is no other god. God is the only true God. This is what I believe. I know other religious beliefs can hold different stances to this, but if you pick up the Bible and read in context, you'll see the brilliant grace of it being on Jesus to save, not ourselves.

Please seek medical help and speak with a pastor. This is beyond anything that can be helped with an online forum. Please reach out to a Christian therapist. There is hope for you.

Kostilaks said:

Days ago, someone spitted outside. After some minutes, I passed from that spot and maybe touched it with my shoe. Many times when I touch my shoes, I wash my hands just in case.

Today I put on my shoes and ocd was telling me

ocd: go wash your hands because maybe that human had covid and you may spread the virus and Gods may punish you.

I did not want to wash my hands but I was afraid of this so I washed them. I thought I was washing them because I was afraid of Gods in case I spread the virus and not because ocd was telling me to do it.

I washed my hands and I think, 2 years ago, I made a promise to Christian God about not washing my hands compulsively. I tried to make the promise in order to fight ocd. What if other Gods who do not care about my ocd accepted the promise?

I AM [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ING TIRED! i do not WANT TO BELIEVE TO ANYONE!

every day almost every minute, I pray for every single intrusive thoughts i get thoughts liek

intrusive htoughts: punishments, deals with Gods, promises etc

and I always repeat myself that they were thoughts without my will.

YOU KNOW WHAT? I AM [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ING [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ED OFF!

I DO NOT WANT TO BELIEVE TO ANYONE!

I WANNA BE FREE AND HAVE SEXUAL THOUGHTST AND SMOKE WITHOUT ANY GUILT!

I HAVE A DEPRESSION OK? I CANT HELP MYSELF!

i have stomach problems because of my anxiety. Sin helps me feel better. OK?

do not you dare threaten me about hell!

Click to expand...

Crabcake said:

Also, please stop using this forum. It's not that we here don't want to help you, but it's because we can only do so much and you really need professional help. You aren't going to feel better by using this platform because right now you're seeking assurance and if we keep answering you, we aren't helping you but rather encouraging you to use this

Click to expand...

She is right on this one in particular, @Kostilaks . Please pay this post heed.

Better to be obsessed about God then sex. It takes effort. You could learn other ways to relax and let your guard down. Meditate on a scripture. Do you take meds? Sleep. Don’t give up, just have responsibility for your faith. Sounds like your life is tiring, but Jesus wants to teach a new thing. Find out what is!