I feel like theres nothing special about me because of my name

"Born on Christmas Day"

That is what your name means.

Awesome! So lovely....be proud of that

Name Natashia: Name Meaning, Origin, and Popularity - Baby Names

Offer up your thoughts, feelings to Jesus. He loves you. He IS real. He always has His arms open for us.

Never ever give up on God. Even through the tough times that we have to go through. We all carry a cross.

Just remember that Jesus is indeed carrying you as you carry your cross.

Persevere in prayer. Try to turn negatives into positives. Ok, it wont be easy but not everything in life is.

God loves you. Many battles will be lost to the devil but, he aint EVER GOING TO WIN THE WAR!

God bless and protect you

FightTheFlesh said:

i feel loveless and like an unlovable person cause deep down maybe I'm not really good like I wanted to believe. How can God fix this? Idk I feel like a commoner loser now.

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I don't think any of us are as good as we'd like. We don't really measure up. I think it's an important realization to have, because it helps us to see our pride and brings us down a notch or two. Sometimes we will get lowered, we need it. We don't want it, but it's good for us. We don't change unless we have to, and we're all going to find a lot about ourselves that we don't like. It doesn't mean something has dramatically changed, it just means that we see things in a different light. It might spook us, and I hope it does, but we shouldn't give in to despair, we should just go to Christ with it. We're all doing plenty of trips to His cross, and we're all dropping piles of our filth, sin, worries and fears before His feet, again and again.

And when we're lowly, we can see Jesus Christ in a different light - we can see what we need saving from, what we need grace for, and Christ and His cross becomes more meaningful. Ultimately it's so much more about Him than about us. We will get disappointed in ourselves, in our lives, in other people and the world. But there is a victory in Christ, in the end. We hold on to it with faith, not with what we are. And we go to Him as we are, not as what we think we should be. His righteousness and faithfulness is perfect when ours isn't. Eyes on Him, not on us. Faith goes outward and it grasps Christ and God's promises, fear always goes inward and makes us endlessly stare at our own failures. While some self-reflection can be a good thing, we can never fulfill what Christ did. We can't compete against Him. What He did, and what He does, it's for us. So we just trust in Him when we can't trust in ourselves. Faith, trust and hope will get stronger in time.

God is mighty to save. We don't have to despair about the state we are in. Any feelings telling us we should despair and give in to fear, are to be rebuked and they're not worth listening to, no matter how hard they might slap us around. We can just cling to Christ and place our hope in Him. Not in ourselves, but in Him.

Don't think you're too sinful for God to be able to save you, as if something you do is in any way stronger what God does. Our sins are like dirty dust, they're our deeds. We are but dust ourselves too. But God's deeds are greater, He offered us His Son who bore our sin, fully knowing our sin, and Jesus Christ is righteous for the unrighteous, and He intercedes on our behalf. We don't need to be favored by God in any other way. This alone tells us of such a love none of us are really capable of. No fear. No despair. Just hope. If we can't feel, then we choose. Even if I might be a commoner loser, if even that, I choose to believe Jesus Christ is who He says He is, and He's absolutely able to deliver salvation and whatever concerns me, and not only that, I believe He's done it already. How much I'm sanctified while I'm here, I will not know, I leave to Him, but I will believe that He died for sinners, which is the cornerstone of our religion. I am certainly a sinner, I know for a fact that I am, so many times I've had to see my own sin and how deep it goes. So I can count myself as one of the people Christ died for. If He died for us, and also rose up in resurrection for us so that we might have eternal life with Him, I'm going to depend on Him instead of myself.

Lost4words, that puppy above, is absolutely right. Said a prayer for you, don't give up, we all have a lot of learning to do. Christ be with you.

You know Natasha you have the same name as one of my daughter's, a beautiful name, a beautiful person.

With this world it is a major battle, please do not be surprised that you are worldly. i was as worldly as anything too and kept ignoring God and His ways. It turns out such a miserable life, where all my dreams run cold and the love of my life was stolen.


Down in my pit i met up with Christ again and He taught me a lesson or two about myself, pride, greed and arrogance being the first ones to go. Honest life with Jesus is very much better. Sure not if you become religious and try to do your religious chores to please Him, such doesn't work very well and often times turns us into unhappy and what is worse judgemental people.

Loving Jesus because He loved us is what true faith is all about. Honest life has gotten so much better with Jesus on board.

Life with Jesus is growing in love and truthfulness instead of loosing that life that is the good thing. And the freedom we get to serve Him is awesome. Jesus loves us to have our good life back the very life we squandered running after the world. Running after the world empty us out of our good life while life with Jesus grows us our good life.

So if i was you i surrender all your desires into Jesus hands and ask Him to build you new ones. It is absolutely amazing what happens when we give Him our bad life and ask Him for good life back. Sure it takes awhile to learn to hold onto His good life but i found that loving Jesus for loving me works better than obeying any other law in the universe.

Hand over your bad life to Jesus even today and begin to grow good life back, each day a bit more, and you will see that life with Jesus is much more rewarding than life with the devil.

Please do consider going to Jesus and dropping your bad life off at His feet.

Peace.

FightTheFlesh said:

My name is natashia and I used to love my name, but one day I found out the meaning of it and it meant something dealing with jesus. I know this makes me look evil but I would like for others to envy me in some way or just feel special but I realized my whole life nothing grew. I feel emotionless and i dont want to go to hell but i feel my relationship is not pure with jesus. I dont even feel I like him like that and deep down I dont even think I'm a Christian. I love all "worldly" things. I tried to keep up with the Christian lifestyle but I kept rejecting jesus and then going back and over and over I got involved in tarot cards too. I heard a saying that if the world loves you then you are of the world and the world is gonna pass away and it seemed like almost overnight like a lot of people just became overly nice to me. I'm always trying to protect myself. I'm not gonna lie I used to be really arrogant secretly but I tried to change my ways but i dont know if I'll ever be happy again. I dont love anyone, it's hard for me to. I love celebrities and I just think they're so awesome I'm so sad and I had thoughts that made me feel like I lost the kingdom of heaven. In a way I kind of feel like this is all a form of karma for the things I've done to others in the past and secretly thinking that I'm better but I realize that everything has changed. I was hoping for a happy ending but I'm not happy. I want love in my life but it seems like all the people I dont want seem to love me. I have no guide no real path i want to take. I want to do fashion but my cousin beat me to that as well. I guess what goes around comes around but I dont know how to handle it. I really thought God favored me in some way but I guess not and I want to make it into heaven and I dont wanna go to hell. I didnt want to be competitive either but just seeing all of these people succeeding made me feel competitive again. It's like they're all truly really good people and I'm not and I wish I could be a good loving person like that and I dont know what's gonna happen to me cause I've committed so many sins and I feel my heart is so not in a good place. I dont wanna kill myself but I feel I have nothing to really live for cause I'm getting nothing i want. My dad won in sabotaging and destroying my Hope's and dreams and now Idont know what to do
I never feel safe ever and I hate it when people are nice to me but I dont know how this happened but it happened out of nowhere. I really hope I did not lose heaven because now I'm left with all of these dark feelings. And deep down I dont want to be overly self sacrificing like jesus because i have nothing to give. I dont know of theres any way God can redeem me and bring me back from this because I prayed so much and I dont want a man in my life and I dont want to be married to anyone just yet. I'm so sad. I want to hang on that hopefully maybe one day at least ONE dream of mine will come true. I'm tired of being the loser the bum and the one that hasn't accomplished anything. I've let my family down and has brought so much shame. I love celebrities and that's just what I love. I want to live gods way but it's so hard I give in to pleasure too much too easily and dont have much work ethic. I've always prided myself on being a leader but I feel like the opposite now. I always wanted to stand out in something and bring some form of happiness and glory to my family but my dad kept trying to destroy me. I'm not a perfect little angel and I love a lot of atheists the very people I always tried to avoid. I don't know what's gonna happen to me but I definitely didnt see this coming. It all feels like a bad dream and i dont want to lose love in my life but i feel loveless and like an unlovable person cause deep down maybe I'm not really good like I wanted to believe. How can God fix this? Idk I feel like a commoner loser now.

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Hello Natashia,
Why I call you the name that you don’t like.
I used not to like my name, too. Don’t overthink about that. Just be grateful. I wish my name deals with Jesus. Why ? Because I love Him. I will tell the world that I love Him.

Don’t constantly accuse yourself!
Just say this: I submit myself to God. I resist all accusations, slander, guilt, shame and condemnation in the name of Jesus Christ.

If you have anything against yourself or want to say something against yourself or think something against yourself, just said again and again the positive confession in the name of Jesus Christ. Those evil spirits of accusations, slander, guilt, shame and condemnation will certainly flee.

Don’t worry if those spirits come back, just again and again in faith. Those evil spirits will flee.

You don’t need others to envy you or feel you special. Why ? Those whom Christ died is very special. Have you heard this:

so that in the coming ages He might show the IMMEASURABLE RICHES of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. -Ephesians 2:7

That is how much Heavenly Father would do for us in Christ Jesus. That is awesome !
If you are in Christ, you are really special.

Natashia, from what you have written,
I sense that the Holy Spirit convict your sins that you should repent wholeheartedly.

“I feel emotionless and i dont want to go to hell but i feel my relationship is not pure with jesus.” —- you are emotionless because you are spiritually dry ! [ look up Psalm 32:3-4]

“I dont even feel I like him like that and deep down I dont even think I'm a Christian.” —you know that you cannot be part of the world and part of God at the same time. — just like every branch in Jesus that does not bear fruit He takes away,- John 15:2

I love all "worldly" things. I tried to keep up with the Christian lifestyle but I kept rejecting jesus and then going back and over and over I got involved in tarot cards too. — your mind still set on the things of the world, therefore it cannot subject to the things of the Spirit that Christ have taught. [ Roman 8:7]

“it seemed like almost overnight like a lot of people just became overly nice to me.“—- you became like the world — of course, they will be nice to you— but you know deep down it is superficial and temporary.

“I'm always trying to protect myself. I'm not gonna lie I used to be really arrogant secretly but I tried to change my ways but i dont know if I'll ever be happy again.” —- you know you need the change but you just doubt yourself that you can do it or even if you can do it, you think you will not be happy because you have not totally accepted that the change that the Holy Spirit can bring to your life.

“I dont love anyone, it's hard for me to. I love celebrities and I just think they're so awesome I'm so sad and I had thoughts that made me feel like I lost the kingdom of heaven.” —- those thoughts that you may lose kingdom of heavens is from the Holy Spirit— don’t deny the Holy Spirit because He is good, kind and gentle— He can help you and comfort you with His love.

Do nothing out of rivalry with your cousins or others. Just do things for the Lord Jesus Christ who loves you.

“It's like they're all truly really good people and I'm not and I wish I could be a good loving person like that and I dont know what's gonna happen to me cause I've committed so many sins and I feel my heart is so not in a good place.“—- to be a good loving person —- you cannot do with your own strength— you need to depend on God’s strength —- you need God’s help — otherwise why the Heavenly Father’s promise that Jesus need to baptize you with Holy Spirit— because God know that you need His Spirit to help you.

“I dont wanna kill myself but I feel I have nothing to really live for cause I'm getting nothing i want.” — you know when you don’t get what you want that you feel lost — this is how it is that you are lost sheep !

“My dad won in sabotaging and destroying my Hope's and dreams and now Idont know what to do” — another obstacle for prayer not get answered if you don’t start forgiving.

“ I never feel safe ever and I hate it when people are nice to me but I dont know how this happened but it happened out of nowhere.” —- the Holy Spirit convict you again—you are not going to be safe unless you are with the Lord.

“I really hope I did not lose heaven because now I'm left with all of these dark feelings.”—I don’t want to sweet talk you but you know when you are left with dark feelings, you are not going up but going down. Just repent, then you will be on the way up.

“And deep down I dont want to be overly self sacrificing like jesus because i have nothing to give. I dont know of theres any way God can redeem me and bring me back from this because I prayed so much and I dont want a man in my life and I dont want to be married to anyone just yet. I'm so sad. I want to hang on that hopefully maybe one day at least ONE dream of mine will come true.“ ——once you know the love of Christ; you will be more than willing to sacrifice yourself for Him. You rely on your strength to give to Jesus; you must know Jesus did not want that ;He wants you to rely on His strength; the Lord cannot hear your prayer because of your sins. You must know the cause of much sadness ; it is because you keep reject the Lord’s admonition. You will be sad again when your only dream don’t come true. How much hurt do you need to get aright with Jesus. I was hurt badly enough by the Shepherd’s Rod ! Honestly, you don’t want that ! It HURTS!

“I'm tired of being the loser the bum and the one that hasn't accomplished anything. I've let my family down and has brought so much shame.” — you will bring shame to yourself if you don’t get back to the Lord. [ Psalms 25:3]

“I love celebrities and that's just what I love.”
—-if this love or relations bring you far from God, you know you have to do [Matthew 10:38]

“I want to live gods way but it's so hard I give in to pleasure too much too easily and dont have much work ethic.” —- Rely on God’s strength. Repent !!

“I've always prided myself on being a leader but I feel like the opposite now.“—-you know you are going to be a person that you don’t like; why continue living that way! Hate all things evil ; that there may be more hope in you.

“I always wanted to stand out in something and bring some form of happiness and glory to my family but my dad kept trying to destroy me.“ —- I don’t know why you say that your dad is trying to destroy you; if you want to bring joy to your family, start surrendering your will to God.

“I'm not a perfect little angel and I love a lot of atheists the very people I always tried to avoid.“—-you know when you try to avoid atheists, the Holy Spirit is guiding you. Listen to His guidance.

“I don't know what's gonna happen to me but I definitely didnt see this coming. It all feels like a bad dream and i dont want to lose love in my life but i feel loveless and like an unlovable person cause deep down maybe I'm not really good like I wanted to believe.“—- you know many unexpected bad things happen to you, you need to heed the warnings and get right back to God. If your strength and ability do not work, you keep hurting yourself! God wants to fix you but many instances you are resisting. Wait on God that you may gain His strength.

The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. -Lamentations 3:25

Why I write so much because I sense that Holy Spirit loves you ! That is why He convicts your sin that you may repent.

my name means 'bee' (as in the insect). hehe

at least yours has a nice meaning- I looked it up as well and it also said 'born on Christmas Day' - I think that's a really nice meaning.

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