First off, Holy Spirit, if you are reading this know that I love you.
I have been having bad thoughts about the Holy Spirit for a while now. I don't want to trigger any of you so I won't out right say what they were, just that they were about Him leaving me, perversions of His name that I had heard from atheists and other bad thoughts.
Now some of these thoughts, I get this bad feeling in my gut when I have them (it physically hurts me to have them), while others I feel nothing at all and just brush them off. It feels like the ones that hurt came from my head (but not my heart), the other ones were the enemy or some random thoughts from my subconscious, idk.
We are one Spirit with the Holy Spirit, so it makes sense that I would feel some of the things He is feeling. Ephesians 4:4, 1 Corinthians 3:16
I think I have grieved the Spirit (Ephesians 4:30) because lately I have been unable to feel Him that much, except when I think something bad and it hurts, or I pray in tongues but then I also get assaulted by bad thoughts which ruins it.
Just felt the need to post this. Not sure what I want from you guys.
I know we are sealed with Him (Ephesians 1:13) so I do not think we can lose our salvation. But I just want the Holy Spirit to be pleased with me.
I have been having bad thoughts about the Holy Spirit for a while now. I don't want to trigger any of you so I won't out right say what they were, just that they were about Him leaving me, perversions of His name that I had heard from atheists and other bad thoughts.
Now some of these thoughts, I get this bad feeling in my gut when I have them (it physically hurts me to have them), while others I feel nothing at all and just brush them off. It feels like the ones that hurt came from my head (but not my heart), the other ones were the enemy or some random thoughts from my subconscious, idk.
We are one Spirit with the Holy Spirit, so it makes sense that I would feel some of the things He is feeling. Ephesians 4:4, 1 Corinthians 3:16
I think I have grieved the Spirit (Ephesians 4:30) because lately I have been unable to feel Him that much, except when I think something bad and it hurts, or I pray in tongues but then I also get assaulted by bad thoughts which ruins it.
Just felt the need to post this. Not sure what I want from you guys.
I know we are sealed with Him (Ephesians 1:13) so I do not think we can lose our salvation. But I just want the Holy Spirit to be pleased with me.