Is it possible to take the Mark of the Beast in the unconscious moments of Serotonin Syndrome the Devil is just toying me lately saying I damned to hell and lost and he keeps showing me dreams and visions of rainbows with satanic symbols and pretending to use my phone to text it is to late your family, friends, church, and pastors are spiritually blind they already have the Mark of the Beast and won't be raptured and your doomed as the Antichrist/False Prophet with no hope if only you killed yourself at 18 you could be with Jesus forever now you have 666 from Revelation your the man with the number the voice laughs constantly.
I get sad because I love Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit and I cry to my Mom and Dad and they try to reassure me that Jesus loves me it is is just brain infection and scitzphrenia, pandas, autism, ocd and I am okay with Jesus they are Christians and they have notes around the house that says God is not mad at you and Jesus loves you. Meanwhile Satan is laughing at me that I can't be a pastor or get married and that he ruined the Bible proving it false by snatching/kidnapping me away from Jesus by using a Yellow Cross which emitted the Mark of the Beast to my knuckles and sent lines on my forehead blaspheming my best friend Jesus damned to hell with no mansion which breaks my heart everyday I wake up thinking today the rapture will occur and I will miss it Jesus will be in the clouds and ignore are friendship. My Mom, Dad, Church, Family, and Friends tell me to read my Holy Bible but I don't feel the Holy Spirit I was europhic in September supernaturally healed but then the Devil showed up pretending to be Jesus and I bowed thinking I was doing the right thing now it is Easter and I am convinced I will be left behind but last night I saw Jesus in my head telling me not to worry that it is a hallucination but I a not sure if it is my hope and optimism or if it is really Jesus telling me I am not damned to hell that Satan is lying and to read the Holy Bible.
My Dad, Mom, Family, Friends, and Church say you can't take the Mark of the Beast in a dream or hallucination Pastor Mark says it is a dream and Dad says you can't take or preorder the Beast without a beast and Pastor Nathan sees the Holy Spirit in my life with my track order of trying to please God in my right mind like King David but I am convinced but now I am King Saul I am convinced the Sun is Heaven looking at me with anger despite reading the Holy Bible and Klove and Church. A Satan blue light shows up on the ceiling and taunts me and I saw myself as the Antichrist the Seven Year Tribulation and Millennium and Demon Girls and making a peace treaty with Israel from the Antichrist perspective a blue light said Beast on me.
I am concerned and worried that I am damned because I confused Jesus and Satan on accident I read John 6, John 10, 1 Corinthians 10:13, Romans 8 and I don't understand how I got separated from God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit by blaspheming the Holy Spirit and how hell separated me from Heaven their is a song the God who Stays on Klove and it says no power of hell separates and In Christ Alone says No power of hell no schemes of man can ever pluck me from his hand until he returns or calls me home this is the power of Christ in me. I know the Bible well I won an Awana contest at 5 grade memory verses it was Romans 3:23 For the Wages of Sin is Death but the Gift of God is Eternal Life but now the devil has me doubting the Bible and my Pastoral ministry he taunted me on the floor with a photo of Jesus you could have been a great fisher of men now you fish for the Devil and I was scared talking to believers from Simpson in a Mental Health facility I told them I am scared I can't be a pastor now they were cute and I enjoyed there company and I noticed the Sun angry at me.
I feel God's wrath is imminent on me and that he is angry I mixed up Satan and Jesus in the Yellow Cross praying to Jesus I saw a blue light that said rapture is two days away and that it is time my heart pounded it who spirits is like a dove and then on the floor it popped up blasphemy of the Holy Spirit Satan said your mine now and I took a nap and 666 beast incoming and I cried out to Jesus would you forgive me if I had 666 I love you and Jesus was in my life and after twenty years of hearing Jesus voice in my head it got replaced by the Devil last night I saw Jesus tell me it was okay but I am not sure if it was really Jesus or my hope that it was Jesus I watched the Pilgrims Progress last night. I just feel so defeated that the Bible missed a warning in scriptures that now I am the Antichrist/False Prophet my Pastor, Church, Family, and Friends tell me it is not real due to the Bible and that we don't have the Mark of the Beast on us we have the Holy Spirit but I see a blue light in my brain for seven months that says Beast can't be a pastor the Bible got it wrong your damned to Hell with the Antichrist you were him.
I just am just so afraid I unconsciously allied with Satan in a hallucination/dream in 10 minutes after loving Jesus for twenty years I stopped at my chair sensing danger but my brain said bow it is Jesus but my heart which may have been the Holy Spirit said don't bow but I had to Bow then I felt a strange sensation in my belly that said Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit and instantly I told Jesus sorry and it went away for five days I am convinced I have the Mark of the Beast from the shower/door and that I am damned to Hell to miss the rapture everyone around reassures me it is my illness and not possible but it feels so real my head says beast but I have scitzphrenia, ocd, pandas, autism I have severe brain swelling but I see the Beast in my brain and I am out of my body with no erections we get the next set of lab results tomorrow. I saw a vision of Jesus last night telling me to read my Bible you will be a Pastor and go to Grand Canyon ignore the blue light that says Beast but I don't if it is was really Jesus since I see the Mark of the Beast on my forehead and knuckles optimistically it was Jesus he even punched Satan but I worry it is an optimistic hallucination about Heaven. I asked Jesus in my heart at Four and I was Baptized and God showed me Heaven as a young adult and it was beautiful and I couldn't wait to die now I feel depressed and damned by the same God who showed me wonderful things all over an accident in the shower I am sad guys and gals.
