I am so scared I offended Jesus

I can't stop thinking that I offended God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit in a dream/hallucination it wasn't something I could control the Yellow Light/Cross was mental illness but I worry that it emitted the Mark but it was a dream out of my control everyone keeps telling me that God isn't going hold me responsible for a dream/hallucination but it feels real.

I am so scared that I am going to miss the rapture for an accident that I couldn't control I am worried that I offended God with the words I prayed out of psychosis I questioned God's judgment on the world and the wrath he was soon going to pour out on the world and I was scared I had 666 and ranted to God and I was scared of the Yellow Light/Cross.

Does God hate me for my mental illness is he truly mad at me for falling for the yellow light/cross and confusing him with Satan on accident and ranting to God would he allow Satan to place the Mark on me for my rant. I am so scared that God removed my name from the Lamb's Book of Life for my rant and my mental breakdown.

I truly love God and my heart is breaking I didn't wake up on October 4 wanting to Blaspheme God my mental illness took over my body and brain I became so confused I was praying to Jesus and I thought the Yellow Light was Jesus but it was a trick and I am so scared that I lost my salvation on a trick.

Would Jesus take salvation away from someone for a trick out of their control. I am so scared that I lost my salvation accidentally worshiping Satan in a dream/hallucination it bothers me greatly I truly love God and I would never worship Satan in my right mind is accidentally confusing the Holy Spirit and Satan Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I didn't verbally speak against the Holy Spirit I simply had a dream.

Everyone keeps telling me to ignore the dream and stick to the truth of God's word but how do you do that when your so scared you Blasphemed the Holy Spirit everyone keeps telling me confusing Satan and the Holy Spirit in a dream isn't blasphemy and I am eternally secure but it feels so real.

Would God really place the Mark on the believer or was it just a dream I have Paranoid Schizophrenia, Autism, Pandas, and Autism and I am so scared that I offended God and that I can't be raptured now would God really hold a mentally ill person responsible for something out of their control.

Was the Yellow Light/Cross real everyone keeps telling me it was a dream and crosses don't talk and there is no warning about talking crosses in the Bible. Am I okay guys and gals with Jesus despite my accidental confusion of Jesus and Satan is Jesus going to hold me responsible for an accident.

MrsFoundit said:

God never places the bad mark on anyone.

As for out of your control, I wonder if Jesus does thinks you never did worship anyone except Him?.

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Is Jesus mad that I accidentally bowed to Satan thinking it was Jesus since I was praying when it happened I assumed the yellow light was Jesus. It wasn't intentional worship of Satan.

d taylor said:

Well either this person really has a problem or it is youth or young person having a good time with this, occupying peoples time.

So as people continue to reply the post will continue.

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I am just trying to figure out this mental illness.

Ricky M said:

Dude. How many times are you going to post this? Listen to what others have already told you, and MOVE ON.

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I will try to move on.

d taylor said:

Well i would not suggest a computer forum as a place to do that. Like i was saying if you have a problem, all you will get here is people posting different opinions.

And i see you basically posting the same thing over and over so really what are you accomplishing, nothing.

It would be like playing a professional basketball one on one and playing again and again and again. eventually thinking you will win.

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Thanks I just can't figure out why God would be mad by dream/hallucination of the Yellow Light.