- Aug 19, 2019
- 19
- 31
- 28
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Single
I want to be a loving wife to a wonderful Christian man. But I've been struggling with this horrible mindset.
It started when my family implied and then got angry that my body wasn't as "womanly" as expected. Their comments never really left me. Afterwards, I began to take too much notice of other people's relationships. If I hear in the news, word of mouth, or in entertainment about divorce, cheating, abuse, or an emotionally dead marriage: i seem to make it about me. I assume that what I saw and heard is my future. Now I'm been comparing myself to other women. I can't just admire them and move on. I have to tear myself down. I ask myself "why can't you look like them? What's wrong with your body? Why would a man stay faithful to you?"
I don't want to think like this anymore. I believe that the devil has taken advantage of my thoughts. I really appreciate any comments or advice you post. Thank you for reading.
It started when my family implied and then got angry that my body wasn't as "womanly" as expected. Their comments never really left me. Afterwards, I began to take too much notice of other people's relationships. If I hear in the news, word of mouth, or in entertainment about divorce, cheating, abuse, or an emotionally dead marriage: i seem to make it about me. I assume that what I saw and heard is my future. Now I'm been comparing myself to other women. I can't just admire them and move on. I have to tear myself down. I ask myself "why can't you look like them? What's wrong with your body? Why would a man stay faithful to you?"
I don't want to think like this anymore. I believe that the devil has taken advantage of my thoughts. I really appreciate any comments or advice you post. Thank you for reading.