- May 5, 2019
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I have returned to Christ a couple of years ago after about a decade of being an atheist. At about the same time I got my first decent job (in sys-admin).
A few months ago I struck up a friendship with a Christian woman who works in the cafeteria at the same place I do. We often talk in my office when she delivers my lunch.
Well, last week when we were talking she would bend over in a manner of I could see her whole top. Of course I lusted after her.
This is not the kind of sin I would have committed as an atheist when I gave not a whit about sinning. I was a inappropriate content addict back then which distracted me from IRL women. With His Grace and the intercession of the Saints I have rejected that filth, but now it seems I have moved spiritually from the frying pan to the fire. Prayer and listening to the Gregorian Chant which have been so helpful in my overcoming inappropriate content have been useless so far.
I talked to an elder at my Church and he said that cowardice not lust is my real sin and that I knew what I must do. Yes, I must tell her about it.
She is not doing this on purpose. She is a Christian and would not be immodest on purpose. (She never actually dresses in even a vaguely provocative way. ) In addition, nothing would disgust a woman more than me having those kind of thoughts about her. As a Christian she would be grateful even if embarrassed that I brought this to her attention, but her visceral reaction as a woman would be EEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW! THE CREEPER IS OGLING ME! FIRE HIM TODAY AND CASTRATE HIM TOMORROW! #METOO! She could easily get me fired and most likely ruin my career. That is why I am scared. Is there a good way I could broach this subject without triggering her primal disgust response?
A few months ago I struck up a friendship with a Christian woman who works in the cafeteria at the same place I do. We often talk in my office when she delivers my lunch.
Well, last week when we were talking she would bend over in a manner of I could see her whole top. Of course I lusted after her.
This is not the kind of sin I would have committed as an atheist when I gave not a whit about sinning. I was a inappropriate content addict back then which distracted me from IRL women. With His Grace and the intercession of the Saints I have rejected that filth, but now it seems I have moved spiritually from the frying pan to the fire. Prayer and listening to the Gregorian Chant which have been so helpful in my overcoming inappropriate content have been useless so far.
I talked to an elder at my Church and he said that cowardice not lust is my real sin and that I knew what I must do. Yes, I must tell her about it.
She is not doing this on purpose. She is a Christian and would not be immodest on purpose. (She never actually dresses in even a vaguely provocative way. ) In addition, nothing would disgust a woman more than me having those kind of thoughts about her. As a Christian she would be grateful even if embarrassed that I brought this to her attention, but her visceral reaction as a woman would be EEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW! THE CREEPER IS OGLING ME! FIRE HIM TODAY AND CASTRATE HIM TOMORROW! #METOO! She could easily get me fired and most likely ruin my career. That is why I am scared. Is there a good way I could broach this subject without triggering her primal disgust response?