I’m so hurt & confused. I was never normal. I’m so pathetic. I wore a mask all my life that I didn’t know I was wearing. I just thought I didn’t know how to handle my emotions, I didn’t realize that I didn’t have certain emotions (such as emotional love) I now know I function from my head and not my heart. I so want to be normal. I had a crisis of faith several years ago. I asked God to give me scripture to help me. I heard 2 Timothy 3. I was devastated, but my husband and others convinced me it was the enemy. But now I realize those scriptures do fit me. I feel like Esau, hated before I was ever born. I don’t blame God for hating me, I’m an abomination, but I didn’t recognize what I was. I feel His wrath, I hurt to my core.