I've accepted Jesus as my Savior and now it feels like all I have to look forward to is Heaven. I have no relationships with other people besides some loose acquaintances; my biological family and I have no contact with each other and I'm far too awkward/creepy to attract women so I've given up on that. My job has little opportunity for advancement but it is by far the most secure and well-paying job I've ever had so I don't want to leave it for fear of not getting anything better. I have no other marketable skills, talent, or education.
I was born with health issues and more and more keep cropping up. I fought against that for a long time; until about two years ago I worked out six days per week and was reasonably fit, in spite of my disabilities. Now I get injured so easily that I'm afraid to do anything physical at all. More importantly than that, I have no inclination to do anything but lie on the couch and look up inane stuff online. All of my other hobbies that I used to have are no longer very interesting to me either. What I like best anymore is sleeping.
I'm so uncomfortable around others that I think that I should just avoid everyone as much as is practical. I don't want to hurt anyone but I know how capable I am of doing that so it's better for everyone else if I just stay away.
I guess my question is, would God be okay with me just doing my full-time job and then spending the rest of my time lying on the couch? I've prayed for guidance but He has never spoken to me or pointed me in any direction.
I want to serve God but I really don't know how; I've volunteered quite a bit inside my church and outside of it but always just felt horrible being around other people. I've not gone to my church for several months now because I don't want to be around other people. Aside from what "I want", I'm pretty sure God doesn't want me to snap and hurt other people (right?) and if I don't stay away from others then I'm sure that's what will happen.
Is life anything besides an opportunity to screw up and earn damnation?
I was born with health issues and more and more keep cropping up. I fought against that for a long time; until about two years ago I worked out six days per week and was reasonably fit, in spite of my disabilities. Now I get injured so easily that I'm afraid to do anything physical at all. More importantly than that, I have no inclination to do anything but lie on the couch and look up inane stuff online. All of my other hobbies that I used to have are no longer very interesting to me either. What I like best anymore is sleeping.
I'm so uncomfortable around others that I think that I should just avoid everyone as much as is practical. I don't want to hurt anyone but I know how capable I am of doing that so it's better for everyone else if I just stay away.
I guess my question is, would God be okay with me just doing my full-time job and then spending the rest of my time lying on the couch? I've prayed for guidance but He has never spoken to me or pointed me in any direction.
I want to serve God but I really don't know how; I've volunteered quite a bit inside my church and outside of it but always just felt horrible being around other people. I've not gone to my church for several months now because I don't want to be around other people. Aside from what "I want", I'm pretty sure God doesn't want me to snap and hurt other people (right?) and if I don't stay away from others then I'm sure that's what will happen.
Is life anything besides an opportunity to screw up and earn damnation?