This year has been a pretty tough one for me. I’ve experienced a lot of sadness and setbacks, yet I have continuously looked to God for His help. Last night was the first time that I finally feel “broken” and I don’t know what to do. I normally look to God for comfort, praying without ceasing for him to help me with whatever situation I’m in, continuously praying, having faith, and thinking positively while waiting for God’s help. Yet every time I do, I’m yet again disappointed. I understand that when it comes to asking God and prayer, His answer is either yes, no, or yes but wait, all in accordance with His will. I’ve also read that we have to have unwavering faith in order for our prayers to be answered, or have to truly in order to receive. But how can we continuously have unwavering faith, and truly believing when more often than not (at least in my experience), God’s answer is no? It’s truly demoralizing and disheartening, and it makes me fear truly believing and having faith again only to be crushed and go through the pain, tears, and physical pain of disappointed again, and again. Why should we even seek God for help, if things will only go according to His will? Shouldn’t we just it and wait for His guidance rather than having hope and believing and having faith and asking Him for help? Why spend, weeks, months, or even years praying for help when it just brings pain? Wouldn’t it be easier to just never ask, never have hope to end up just being disappointed ?
I’m sorry if this sounds jaded. I’m just in a really bad place right now and I truly just do not understand. Thank you
I’m sorry if this sounds jaded. I’m just in a really bad place right now and I truly just do not understand. Thank you