I had went through spiritual warfare back in 2016 and 2017. I had first turned to Jesus. I felt the holy spirit and i was reading the bible full of joy, then suddenly after that this huge wave of confusion had came over me and i did not understand why. I ended up losing my mind and i started getting thoughts, crazy thoughts. I was worried about the mark of the b-word and this thought kept coming to me and it kept trying to accuse jesus and make me think "are you sure you can trust Jesus?" I prayed to jesus one night for me not to get the mark and then one night i went to sleep and this bright light came to me and overcame me and it got hotter and hotter and hotter until i felt like it was burning me up and i worried "is this hell is this hell?" And then i woke up. I was so so scared after that and something kept trying to make me feel like i shouldn't trust Jesus. And then i told my neighbor about it and she said she think that bright light was the holy spirit and i stupidly said "well i don't want it. I don't want it" and then right as son as i said that the fire alarm went off. I was scared of what had happened to me. Now i all worried that i committed the unpardonable sin. I feel like there is no way God will forgive me now. I said all of these things when i was out of my mind. I now know that it was the dumb devil trying to get me to say these things and the reason i was attacked in the first place is because i wss trying to tear down the devil's kingdom. One day this preacher wss telling me to come to church and i kept rejecting it and i didn't want anyone praying for me because i kept getting this thought like "how do you know you can trust christianity? What if it's all a trick?" I now know it was the devil and he tried to get me to commit the unpardonable sin. I have since accepted Jesus as my lord and savior( which i had already did a long time ago but i felt like i still want saved) i don't know what to say but that i feel like it's over for me. I am so angry and is always the rarest craziest things happening to me. Please pray for me. After i rejected Jesus that same night in a dream that felt so real this evil pale man with snow White hair was saying to me in a really weird voice "she will be dead at 12pm" which is the time that i was born. Im scared and i feel like it's over for me. I feel so bad for what i said but now i feel like there's no hope. This has been eating me up inside. I can't rest and i can't enjoy my life. The devil had been planning this since the day i was born. He hated me from birth!!! Please pray for me. Will someone who knows anything about this help me? I don't know what to do anymore.
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