Hello. This is my first post on these forums, and I want to start by kicking a skeleton out of my closet.
I am a young man, in my early twenties. I started living a homosexual lifestyle in my late teens, so about 4 years now. I started seeing men, having relations with them, and I spent years in a gay relationship. I thought doing these things would make me happy, and that I was being true to myself.
I still wanted to be a Christian despite the things I was doing. That left me torn between two places, and the gap between me and God grew. I felt dissonant inside, and I knew I could never have it both ways. Every step I took on that path was a step further away from God.
About a month ago, I broke up with the man I was with and cut myself off from that life. The will and courage to do this could only come from God. It was scary and now I am alone, but I can finally start to heal at God's side.
I want to re-evaluate my life and where I am going. I want to spare no effort to distance myself from the world I was in, even if that means being celibate. Looking back on those times, it was little more than a celebration of filth and excess. Most of the people I knew there are just escalating towards total ruination. I hope they can be delivered from death before it's too late.
I am a young man, in my early twenties. I started living a homosexual lifestyle in my late teens, so about 4 years now. I started seeing men, having relations with them, and I spent years in a gay relationship. I thought doing these things would make me happy, and that I was being true to myself.
I still wanted to be a Christian despite the things I was doing. That left me torn between two places, and the gap between me and God grew. I felt dissonant inside, and I knew I could never have it both ways. Every step I took on that path was a step further away from God.
About a month ago, I broke up with the man I was with and cut myself off from that life. The will and courage to do this could only come from God. It was scary and now I am alone, but I can finally start to heal at God's side.
I want to re-evaluate my life and where I am going. I want to spare no effort to distance myself from the world I was in, even if that means being celibate. Looking back on those times, it was little more than a celebration of filth and excess. Most of the people I knew there are just escalating towards total ruination. I hope they can be delivered from death before it's too late.