I need your help/prayers

I have, by and large, overcome my alcoholism, by the grace of God through my prayers and yours, and the help of so many people in my life.

I'm facing another giant now. I want to quit smoking. I've been a half a pack a day smoker for nearly 3 years. I've wanted to quit for over and year, but I have not been able to. I have not gone a single day without at least a smoke since December of last year when I was in a detox facility for several days, doped up on withdrawal medications and anti-seizure medications due to my alcoholism. I was so high, loopy, drowsy, and delirious that I didn't even come to and think of smoking until day 4.

But now I'm out of cigarettes and I want to stop. I just smoked my last one. This has been a tight month so far and I do not have the extra cash to shell out for this habit, which is honestly why I'm trying now. At first I felt bad for offering this up to God knowing that it's only because of my current financial situation, but then I read this:

If you wait until your motives are pure and unselfish before you do something, you will wait forever. – Timothy Keller, The Reason for God: Belief in an Age of Skepticism

Now is as good a time as any and it could have even been God that led me to this moment so that I would STOP. About a week ago my wife was browsing Facebook and there was an article showing a deceased baby who had died of cancer. The baby was being held by its mother. One of my daughters saw the photo and asked my wife about it. She explained. Then my daughter said she doesn't want any of us to get cancer. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I've been praying to be able to stop smoking since. And now I'm here. Having gone through alcohol withdrawal, I'm scared and nervous. I know nicotine is not even close to being the same, but still - until you've detoxed from a drug, you couldn't possibly understand.

So please pray for me. Pray that I can stop, that I will stop, that the withdrawal won't be bad, etc. We aren't allowed to smoke at work so I already go 8-12 hours every working day without nicotine. Halfway through I notice the heart palpitations, increased anxiety, and I'm foggy/fuzzy.

Christie insb said:

Oh I don't know. I have heard that nicotine is the most addictive drug known to man. I am praying for you. Try to get in person support if you can.

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But it isn't deadly. Alcohol withdrawal is the most deadly. I almost died. There's a difference in intense craving and physical danger. You don't go seeking a hospital or detox center over nicotine.