- Jun 28, 2017
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So if you've seen my recent posts, I've come tot he conclusion that God has given up on me...and he's given me a reprobate mind. IS THERE ANY CHRISTIAN SPIRITUAL LEADER THAT I CAN TALK TO?!!!!! So if God gave me over to be a reprobate because I Persist in sin and am unwilling to repent, what does this mean???! Can he save me?? Ugh I'm so sick. I'm so afraid to die because I don't know where I'm going to go. I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. I guess humans "choose" where they want to go and I do want to go to heaven but I can't give up the world and I just don't know why. Oh GOD GUVE ME A NEW HEART THAT IS HUNGRY FOR YOU AND A SPIRIT THAT IS FAITHFUL AND OBEDIENT. I'm convinced I am a reprobate. I did this to myself. I'm just like Esau. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. Someone help me, even if y'all were to talk to God and intercede on my behalf he probably wouldn't answer. I messed up. I'm so disgusting. I hate myself