I've recently been told I have a form of ocd. I've been obsessing about how god can be good and send people to hell. Triggered by a fear of dying and whether i was really saved or not. I've been trying so hard to keep believing god is good. I have never doubted god or his goodness before. The thing that always scared me most is that one day I might stop believing. A few days ago, I was in church and just started wondering if I really believed and feeling numb as I couldn't believe I'd got to a point where I just didn't know or not. I've been told that I can't rely on feelings and have to put faith in facts, but feeling so fake and finding it so hard. Trying hard to make myself accept that god knows what he is doing and to trust him with the hell issue. The thing that always kept me going is that i didnt doubt that jesus died for me. The past few days i havent been able to say that. Im so frightened that i will go to hell if i cant get my faith back. I feel so false at church. I just dont know what to do.How do I get my faith back? Has anyone else had this experience? This has all happened over a period of several months, where it has got harder and harder to fight the thoughts.