my dailey commitment

I first became a Christian in 1995; In November of 1996 I made a commitment to stop drinking. I didn’t want to stop but I prayed the Lord change my desire if he wanted me to stop, and he did. Long story short.

In 2011 I was breaking free from a lot of Legalism I lived and the window of casually drinking opened up for me. I’ve been pretty responsible with it for the most part with a couple of lapses in judgment. I’m human. So yes, that is 15 years with no alcohol.

The part that scares me is I drank a whole bottle of wine (what is that 5 glasses) last night and got up and came to work as if nothing is wrong. I don’t drink daily but I look forward to drinking.
I have a lot to lose. God has blessed me beyond what I could’ve hoped for or imagined and I don’t want to do anything to screw that up.

Wonderful husband. New daughter in law, new grandbaby. My husband quit drinking 7 months ago because of his chemo treatments for cancer. He likes to tease me about my drinking and I always tell him I won’t if he doesn’t want me to but he says he doesn’t mind.

4/27 I’m making a daily commitment to pray it’s not my desire to quit, Change my desire if you want me to Lord.

Thanks Midas. It is actually proven to be harder than I thought which I believe is a sign of trouble or maybe it is because I focus on it more. I used to drink Thurs - Sunday. Last week I just did Fri and Sat. So I knocked out two days - not bad. Yesterday I had to pray and pray hard to not drink. I wanted to, I just was honest with God about it and somehow He got me through without it. I'm looking to just drink on Saturday this week. To knock out 3 days. We will see.
I have been faithful to my commitment to pray about it daily so that is progress. These things take time. It is hard though and not much fun.

Thanks FRM48 will do!