I'm looking forward to joining this Christian community on the internet

Hello everyone! My name is Christopher and I'm 38 years old. Unlike many "born-again" Christians, I don't really have one moment I can think of where Christ came into my life for good and changed me forever. The Christian walk for me has been long and arduous, but well worth it at the same time. I have struggled with doubt and unbelief for much of my life as a Christian. I guess you could kind of say I was a permanent fixture on the fence: Wanting to give my life over to Christ, but not being able to fully embrace him in my heart and intellect. I was raised in the Church- I began attending Church with my parents and siblings for as long as I can remember. But it took me years before making the Christian life truly mine. I asked Christ into my heart countless times without feeling anything, and not certain anything had truly happened to me or changed within me. The first time I actually prayed the sinners prayer with another individual was in a junior high Sunday school class. Still didn't feel anything, and I wasn't really sure if I was supposed to feel a change or not. In Highschool I kinda just floated along, involved in Church Youth Group, but never really "getting" it to my satisfaction. College is where I really began to take my faith seriously, and took courses in the Christian faith so I could be sure about what I professed to believe. In spite of getting A's in all my classes, and understanding the history of Christianity and the Church, and learning all about the Bible, there was always something missing. I always doubted my prayers, doubted whether God really was listening or even cared about what I had to say. I desperately wanted to become fully convinced of my faith, as many of my friends were, but praying to Christ always to me seemed no different than praying to Abraham Lincoln or any other historical figure. I have a pretty good idea today why that was- I always looked at the Bible critically, looking for errors, misinformation, contradictions. I was so analytical, I couldn't just read the Bible and allow the Holy Spirit to transform my heart and my emotions. Well, I have gone on quite a bit, and I could go on for many more pages, but I think that is a proper intro. Suffice it to say that today, my faith in Christ and the Bible is stronger than it ever has been in my life, and I no longer lose faith in the whole world view just because I come across some verse in the Bible that makes me question it's validity. There is enough truth in the Bible to far outweigh any doubts I might have. I would love to help others who have doubts or who are insecure in their faith. I believe if you truly seek, and never stop seeking the Truth, Jesus will reveal Himself to you through your life circumstances, through the Bible, through the fellowships you develop at Church and throughout your life. Jesus is Love, and when you seek the Truth, you will find both Jesus and Love in your life, and plenty of them. God bless. - Christopher