Hello, CF. I've not been much better with my 'what I assume to be' (self diagnosed) OCD.
I have some more questions, though.
So, first off, like most people in this world, I've been exposed to (either through TV, school, my dad,) profanity.
I don't swear, I hate swearing and find it rather irritating, especially when people use it in completely inappropriate places and times.
However, I'd assume this would be an intrusive thought and I wondered if anyone else has had issue with just having random thought of profanity. I find it incredibly irritating and distressing, because I feel like I'm sinning if I think that. And if I accidentally say it(usually when I'm alone, and it's just a harsh whisper) I feel incredibly guilty. I never MEAN or WANT to say it, it just happens if I'm really angry or stressed(which most people do swear when they're angry or stressed, but I doubt they feel much remorse from it...).
It doesn't happen often(saying it, the thoughts of it in my mind, yes, that happens often), but when it does, I just feel really guilty for saying it and I have prayed and asked for forgiveness for that. =/
I hope I was able to say what I wanted to clearly enough. ><
The next thing-- I have 8 geckos and 6 gecko eggs(plus more pets) and I was freaking out one night that I was no longer capable of taking care of my pets. I was seriously so stressed, guilty, and upset I couldn't take care of them better(the only issue I have is that I can never get motivated to clean their cages, but once I start, it's hard to stop until everyone's got clean cages), and I was talking about that on a gecko forum I'm on, and of course there are some people who don't understand my OCD and some that do and have experience with it themselves. One thing someone brought up, because I use parentheses a lot, is that they often ramble and use parentheses to make sure their point gets across. Does anyone else have issues with this?
Also, my neighbor suffers from depression, hallucinations, and from what she tells me, it seems to me she's bipolar. (She's seeing 2 therapists, is on meds, and was diagnosed with depression, even though the doctors don't know why she's depressed, but since she's opening up more, she told me her therapists said the doctors might rediagnose her).
ANYWAY, still talking about my neighbor, Maya, she and I talk over facebook often and we'll tell each other about our problems and it helps us both feel better, however when I'm done telling her, or anyone else, about my symptoms, I feel really guilty and stupid for saying them. Like, I don't know why, I just do. =/
I also seem to be thinking I have multiple mental disorders.... OCD, ADD, Asperger's... I'm pretty sure I'm a hypochondriac.... Oh and I'm probably a bit depressed, too.
I know no one here can diagnose me, I just wanted to see if anyone could relate to what I was saying.
I'm really hoping my dad can get a job so we can afford to go to a doctor and I can talk about this stuff to a professional. *sigh*
I have some more questions, though.
So, first off, like most people in this world, I've been exposed to (either through TV, school, my dad,) profanity.
I don't swear, I hate swearing and find it rather irritating, especially when people use it in completely inappropriate places and times.
However, I'd assume this would be an intrusive thought and I wondered if anyone else has had issue with just having random thought of profanity. I find it incredibly irritating and distressing, because I feel like I'm sinning if I think that. And if I accidentally say it(usually when I'm alone, and it's just a harsh whisper) I feel incredibly guilty. I never MEAN or WANT to say it, it just happens if I'm really angry or stressed(which most people do swear when they're angry or stressed, but I doubt they feel much remorse from it...).
It doesn't happen often(saying it, the thoughts of it in my mind, yes, that happens often), but when it does, I just feel really guilty for saying it and I have prayed and asked for forgiveness for that. =/
I hope I was able to say what I wanted to clearly enough. ><
The next thing-- I have 8 geckos and 6 gecko eggs(plus more pets) and I was freaking out one night that I was no longer capable of taking care of my pets. I was seriously so stressed, guilty, and upset I couldn't take care of them better(the only issue I have is that I can never get motivated to clean their cages, but once I start, it's hard to stop until everyone's got clean cages), and I was talking about that on a gecko forum I'm on, and of course there are some people who don't understand my OCD and some that do and have experience with it themselves. One thing someone brought up, because I use parentheses a lot, is that they often ramble and use parentheses to make sure their point gets across. Does anyone else have issues with this?
Also, my neighbor suffers from depression, hallucinations, and from what she tells me, it seems to me she's bipolar. (She's seeing 2 therapists, is on meds, and was diagnosed with depression, even though the doctors don't know why she's depressed, but since she's opening up more, she told me her therapists said the doctors might rediagnose her).
ANYWAY, still talking about my neighbor, Maya, she and I talk over facebook often and we'll tell each other about our problems and it helps us both feel better, however when I'm done telling her, or anyone else, about my symptoms, I feel really guilty and stupid for saying them. Like, I don't know why, I just do. =/
I also seem to be thinking I have multiple mental disorders.... OCD, ADD, Asperger's... I'm pretty sure I'm a hypochondriac.... Oh and I'm probably a bit depressed, too.
I know no one here can diagnose me, I just wanted to see if anyone could relate to what I was saying.
I'm really hoping my dad can get a job so we can afford to go to a doctor and I can talk about this stuff to a professional. *sigh*
God knows that you do not want to swear, and that you feel guilty about it, so He will not punish you for this! God loves you! The fact that you feel guilty about it and have asked for forgiveness shows that you don't want to swear.
