Overwhelmed with a depressive feeling...

aflower4God · Feb 15, 2011

I took a nap at around 3pm and I woke up with a really depressive feeling, like being hit with the influenza. I am so depressed right now that I feel like I am going to throw up, that has never happened to me like that before. I do know that when I took a nap I had a dream that I died and went to heaven, but when I woke up I was so depressed that it was just a dream.
I tried to go out thinking that going out getting some fresh air would help me but it did not, I could not even eat dinner. I felt like I was just going to break down and cry.
So when I got home I grabbed my Ipod to listen to some sad music thinking that maybe that would help me to get this feeling out of me, but no I still feel so very depressed.
I can't recall the last time that I felt this depressed.
I wonder if it is cause I have never been in love. Or was it the dream I had, the fact that it was not true that I was not in Heaven, that it was a dream and I had to wake up.
Has this ever happened to anyone here?
What did you do to over come this?
I am hurting so badly, I am so lonely, I am so depressed, right now I am in my closet with the lights out writing this cause I just want to shut myself out from the entire world forever, the pain (depressive feeling) is that bad.

I had to get this out, usually I try to keep my hurt inside, and try to stay postive, but the pain is too great to bare right now so I had to come here and let it out, get some advice.
I love Jesus sooooooooooo much and I want to be with Him so badly, I am crying as I say that I didn't want to leave that dream, everything was peaceful there.

Jesusisgood · Feb 15, 2011

Hi flowers! Im so sorry you feel so sad ((hugs)) Cheer up though because you WILL be with Jesus someday and He wants you to have Joy in knowing that

I know i used to cry in my room because I wanted to be in Heaven but hold on. He has a destiny here on earth for you in the mean time and is always right next to you

Jesusisgood · Feb 15, 2011

YouTube - Woship Dance - I Will Go
It will all be ok

He really really loves you too! DOnt shut your self out of the world. I did that once and I found that Jesus wants me to be happy and show my joy of being His to the world

Im here too if you need someone.

LifebyChrist · Feb 15, 2011

Very nice name Jesus is good!

I am very sorry you are feeling depressed and in pain.

1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

You can cast all your cares and anxieties on God,

John 10:11 "I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep."

He lays his life down for you,

Revelation 21:4 "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

2 Corinthians 12:19 "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

As for never being in love before, Jesus loves you.

God is your love and he cares very much about you! God gives a care if your going through pain! He gives a care! It matters to Him alot.

Ecclesiastes 5:3 "As a dream comes when there are many cares, so the speech of a fool when there are many words."

2 Corinthians 5:7 "We live by faith, not by sight."

plumsink · Feb 16, 2011

Dear Petal, I want to tell you something about love.

Romantic love is not by a long shot the highest, best, purest love. People take so much baggage to romantic love, they have so many selfish interests in it. That is why romantic love so often ends badly. Because there was too much "romantic", and too little love. Too many bodily lusts and childhood and psychological baggage involved, and too little compassion.

There is a higher love. There is a love that seeks the good of the beloved, and not oneself. If you wish for love, this is the better love to seek. Both to receive and to practice yourself.

As for your dream, I can't blame you for wishing it was true. I would wish it were true in your place. But since we are still here, we just have to do the best we can in the time remaining.

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))) Petal, I love you! Be strong, we don't have all that long to wait.

aflower4God said:
I took a nap at around 3pm and I woke up with a really depressive feeling, like being hit with the influenza. I am so depressed right now that I feel like I am going to throw up, that has never happened to me like that before. I do know that when I took a nap I had a dream that I died and went to heaven, but when I woke up I was so depressed that it was just a dream.
I tried to go out thinking that going out getting some fresh air would help me but it did not, I could not even eat dinner. I felt like I was just going to break down and cry.
So when I got home I grabbed my Ipod to listen to some sad music thinking that maybe that would help me to get this feeling out of me, but no I still feel so very depressed.
I can't recall the last time that I felt this depressed.
I wonder if it is cause I have never been in love. Or was it the dream I had, the fact that it was not true that I was not in Heaven, that it was a dream and I had to wake up.
Has this ever happened to anyone here?
What did you do to over come this?
I am hurting so badly, I am so lonely, I am so depressed, right now I am in my closet with the lights out writing this cause I just want to shut myself out from the entire world forever, the pain (depressive feeling) is that bad.
I had to get this out, usually I try to keep my hurt inside, and try to stay postive, but the pain is too great to bare right now so I had to come here and let it out, get some advice.
I love Jesus sooooooooooo much and I want to be with Him so badly, I am crying as I say that I didn't want to leave that dream, everything was peaceful there.

Christos Anesti · Feb 16, 2011

If you feel a really strong sense of oppression it can never hurt to simply call on the Lord and say: " Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on me a sinner" or "Lord make haste to help me". Reciting a few Psalms can be helpful too. Don't just say it in your mind sing them out loud.

It's good you were able to write about your problem though because sometimes just telling other people can help you feel a little better.

I will pray for you today please pray for me.

Liberal Angel · Feb 16, 2011

Praying you hang in there!

Criada · Feb 16, 2011

Flower, sweetie, you are already with Jesus! He is right there - heaven will be very wonderful, but knowing Him now, seeing through His eyes, is also very wonderful.
Depression is horrible, I know, but the darkness will pass, and He will still be right beside you.
Look for Him here, sweetie, rather than longing for the future. :hug:

Love you, and praying.

aflower4God · Feb 16, 2011

(((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))
Thank you all for your kind words of support, love and wisdom and PRAYERS. I had a good cry last night and let it all out. Now I am feeling better. I want to thank you all once again for your love and support. GOD BLESS YOU ALL and LOTS OF LOVE to you all. :hug:

:groupprayer:

Criada · Feb 17, 2011

Glad you feel better :hug:

hope_is_last_to_die · Feb 17, 2011

aflower4God said:
(((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))
Thank you all for your kind words of support, love and wisdom and PRAYERS. I had a good cry last night and let it all out. Now I am feeling better. I want to thank you all once again for your love and support. GOD BLESS YOU ALL and LOTS OF LOVE to you all. :groupprayer:

Sorry to hear you were hurting real bad but so glad you are feeling much better now :hug: