let the redeemed of the Lord say so

i stopped posting on here in response to a situation that occured. but i began to see that my defense began to take on this sense of rebellion that was hindering me from encouraging you all. truth is everyone won't like you or what you have to say. but i was and still am a sufferer from this and thus i have a say. I've came a long way. from panic attacks to undistinguishable outbursts from the mouth to countless days and nights of tears crying because i was trying to get closer to the Lord and it seemed like something inside me hated Him. the thoughts were horrible, sexual, blasphemous and triggered with the fear of having committing the unpardonable sin. but now there's joy. i laugh. there are moments of peace where i thank the Lord for. there are some thoughts but when they arise i remember they used to be more intense, numerous, constant so instead of fear i thank the Lord for this control that I have over them. no thought, although they try, can tell me im not the Lords and that God is not able and all the other lies because in my pain He's shown me. its rough. and for those who have barely began to suffer its scary. because you constantly wonder if you gon make it out. but if God has kept me, He will keep you. used to think He was mad at me for these things that I was the worst but God knows my heart and i am not alone. you too my brothers and sister suffer. but know this, our God never loses and NOTHING not even this can keep Him from us. people ask me what i did because they think somehow i am the reason i have joy. but its what God did. what i do know is what i didn't do. i didn't stop praying, i didn't stop going to church, i didn't stop praising and reading the Word. when we draw near to God, He draws near to us. so in love and of faith i say this to you, God is able. don't throw in the towel. it hurts, i know, you just want it all to stop. but if this is what we have to endure that the glory of God be established in us are we to question God? is He not righteous and just that we don't trust Him with our lives. should we rely on our 5 sense or rely on the all knowing, most power God? they who wait upon the Lors shall renew their strength, wait on the Lord. and while you wait praise Him, because He is good. praying for you all

*Lord

amen, like Bishop Noel Jones said, He will finish what He starts, we just can't give up the faith. got to press, through prayer, through praise, worship, keeping moving forward. yes, He does it all. there is nothing too hard for Him. all our problems He can fix. im believing Him !