I'll make this brief.
I lost my willingness to become a Christian on observing the behaviour of my wife and in-laws.
In-laws are devoutly Christian, proud of it...and both arrogant and judgmental. They are the type who have criticized a wheelchair-bound friend for organizing his house for his own convenience - and not to generally accepted standards of suburban style. They also criticized a chap who was caring for a terminally ill wife - who did not properly entertain them when they came to call.
Wife is in contact with a married ex-boyfriend. They claim a deeply spiritual, Christian connection, and they look forward to being 'reunited in Christ' one day. (I was told this - I do not have access to their communications, nor would I wish to.)
He would also like to be reunited on Earth (I was told this as well). As I am terminally ill, with a very poor chance of even mid-term survival, this did not sit well.
So...is this Christianity? I am told (by my family) that it is, and it's consistent with the attitudes of churchgoers I know.
I believe in God, and find that the story of Christ's resurrection is both believable and compelling. But in all honesty I have no interest in being coreligionists with people such as I have described.
Or perhaps I am being judgmental, and that this behaviour is normal in American Christianity? (I am neither American nor white, as you may have guessed - my wife and in-laws are.)
In closing - I am not using this as a lead-in toward abandoning my wife, my marriage, or the promise I made before God. Even though I am not a Christian, I am yet an honourable man, and will hold fast to these commitments until my death.
I lost my willingness to become a Christian on observing the behaviour of my wife and in-laws.
In-laws are devoutly Christian, proud of it...and both arrogant and judgmental. They are the type who have criticized a wheelchair-bound friend for organizing his house for his own convenience - and not to generally accepted standards of suburban style. They also criticized a chap who was caring for a terminally ill wife - who did not properly entertain them when they came to call.
Wife is in contact with a married ex-boyfriend. They claim a deeply spiritual, Christian connection, and they look forward to being 'reunited in Christ' one day. (I was told this - I do not have access to their communications, nor would I wish to.)
He would also like to be reunited on Earth (I was told this as well). As I am terminally ill, with a very poor chance of even mid-term survival, this did not sit well.
So...is this Christianity? I am told (by my family) that it is, and it's consistent with the attitudes of churchgoers I know.
I believe in God, and find that the story of Christ's resurrection is both believable and compelling. But in all honesty I have no interest in being coreligionists with people such as I have described.
Or perhaps I am being judgmental, and that this behaviour is normal in American Christianity? (I am neither American nor white, as you may have guessed - my wife and in-laws are.)
In closing - I am not using this as a lead-in toward abandoning my wife, my marriage, or the promise I made before God. Even though I am not a Christian, I am yet an honourable man, and will hold fast to these commitments until my death.