The Lord led me to go back to the beginning something that I feel has been the story of my life this year! So I listened and started with post 1 of this thread and am responding to the ones to which I felt that He wanted me to respond. I will use the page and post number so you can find them easily if you want to refer back for context, and will be removing extra spaces and using my own copy and paste instead of the CF quote feature so I can use my own notes as I go along and conserve space. Hope you all dont mind! You know I can be long winded (and those of you who are new will quickly learn!). Love you guys hope you are as blessed as I am by how you bless me! ~Shell
Cindy in #5 (p. 1), you shared Yes! It's all in Him. All we'll ever need is found in Him. He [is] the starting point. He's the Author and the Finisher of our faith. We start in Him and end in Him. He's the Author and the Finisher of our faith. He's the Alpha and Omega. He's the Beginning and the End. He's the First and the Last. He's our all in all! His name is JESUS! This is something He has been really teaching me over the past 3 years. Funny that He led me to the beginning and this is what you have posted! When I think of the nearly 14 years I was saved before I was SAVED! (not for theological discussion, for the point of how I missed the point of Him being the Author of my faith) because I didnt allow Him to be the Author of my faith and instead tried to control my own destiny, I am saddened by how much time I wasted. I know the Lord has forgiven me, as He is merciful; but I am ever so thankful I finally GOT IT! I cant even begin to tell you how much my life has changed despite this current wilderness experience in which I am feeling isolated and in need of other true Christians who really GET what Christianity and real love and real sacrifice is about since I have realized that HE is the One in control of my life. Whether I want a job or not does not matter, it is what He wants for my life. Whether I want to live in a particular city or attend a certain church or do a certain activity
it is all meaningless if the Lord doesnt support and drive those decisions (Ecclesiastes 1&2). I do not want to do anything in my life that is not within the PERFECT will of the Father (Romans 12:2). I will not say there are not periods of hurt and times when my journal fills up quite quickly because I feel He is the only one who gets me, but I have the assurance that ALL promises from Him WILL come to pass (Psalm 145:13) if I allow Him to remain in control and if I simply submit and surrender. He is the driver of my life. He is the author of my book. He is the One who determines when I wake and when I lie down (Psalm 3:4-6). How amazing the One who created the entire universe also cares about little me (Psalm 139) truly just a spec in the eye of entire universe! TOTALLY UNFATHOMABLE and YET TRUE!
Shep - #16 (p. 2) Good stuff! I have printed this out before for an older journal but have printed this out again to post this time where I can see it and say it daily! I like the rework of Psalm 91 and owning it here and think it a great way to personalize scripture. I do this in a different way in my prayers and think it really helps with learning scripture and writing it on the tablets of our hearts! Amen Sis! Thanks for posting if I havent already thanked you!!!
Shep - #21 (p. 3) Good stuff again! Rejoice in the midst of all situations. While this is such a simple concept and one I know I have to confess it is one I have forgotten lately and could be at the root of my struggles and perhaps the reason for my wilderness journey? I have not been rejoicing as I used to. I have been taking extra time to dwell on the negative and what is not right in my life. Taking time to focus on the things I dont like and the losses that have occurred lately. Focusing on the tragedies and sorrow instead of the joy and everyday beauty. And maybe that was the point of this weekend though I was in the midst of the City and could see sadness and pain and homelessness and sin around me, I could also see the beauty of the lights, the architecture of the buildings, the smells of the food cooking from the street vendors, the flowers blooming in the window gardens, the window setups of the stores as we walked by. It was amazing. It was beautiful. It didnt change the fact that there was sorrow and misery all around me, but I was rejoicing for the positive not dwelling on the negative, enjoying the forest for the trees. Thank you for this reminder that I need to do this daily not just when in the City. I need to do it when at work in the midst of the very negative situations, at home when feeling a bit overwhelmed by the terrible twos and how to deal with the tantrums, and in other situations that arise where I tend to spend too much time focusing on what is going wrong instead of sucking it up and moving forward and thanking the Lord that I have weekends and evenings off, a child who will give me time with the Lord and enjoys worshiping Him with me, and an amazing life when one really steps back to consider it. I really do have a lot to be thankful for and should really be appreciative of ALL of it so I dont lose ANY of it! And yes I agree with #22 on page 3 as well
fasting and praying does amazing things for the soul. Often when I disappear, I also fast. I have always found it odd how easy I find fasting yet how hard I find other things. I guess we all have our vices! I think it is because I was blessed to have a foundation in which prayer and fasting were the first elements of faith that I was taught, before Bible study, worship, teaching, etc. I always ache for those who do not know the wonders that fasting can do for the answer to their prayers! There is a book on the subject that I enjoyed reading with a small group I taught years ago Fasting for Spiritual Breakthrough. Another from many years ago is Spiritual Disciplines for the Christian Life which is good for those desiring to go a bit deeper and do more but dont know how. It touches upon each subject enough to get your brain moving and then you can go to the Lord to ask Him how to move from there! And finally, #30 on page 3 was again needed. I cant remember if I already shared my thoughts previously, but I definitely DID need to come back to the beginning tonight!!! I needed to be reminded of what He is doing and that He IS doing something Great!!!