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Hi PARCmd:
I understand what you are going through. It seems to go in cycles doesn't it? For instance, I myself was struggling again with holy spirit unpardonable sin obsession b/c I read a sermon that was defining it in a certain way and then my mind said the words of exactly what that definition was and I was starting to spike again. The anxiety was rising "oh no" I can't think of this or it is committing the unpardonable sin so then of course, I think of it b/c of the fear and my brain keeps sending signals that this thought is so dangerous I better never think of it again. But that only feeds the thought. That is really what is going on with you and me and everyone with OCD. We FEAR the thoughts so much that they are inevitably in our brains and we cannot escape them. The only way out is to ignore them despite the anxiety. It is SO HARD believe me I know. Keep practicing ignoring the thoughts until your anxiety decreases. That is the only way to be free of the thoughts. Live with them until your brain stops reacting to them with such anxiousness.

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PARCmd said:

I was having this thought (I dunno if it was an Obsession or Mental Compulsion or both) that "I rennc you God not", then I said "but the Holy Spirit", then I again said in my mind "has me" (I really have no intention of renncing the HS)

Then instead of saying it (the "has me" part) loud, I instead said the phrase "But the Holy Spirit has me". I'm too afraid that I might've actually renounced the HS because of the "but" word (grammar and all). Also, when my brain is heavily cluttered with these "brain noises'" I inadvertently say it and/or mumble it....

I also have problems about the word curse. Like "I curse you (name)"... and with the word "irrevocably".

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Prayers and hugs to you Parc! I know exactly how you feel!! GOD BLESS YOU!

I was having this thought (I dunno if it was an Obsession or Mental Compulsion or both) that "I rennc you God not", then I said "but the Holy Spirit", then I again said in my mind "has me" (I really have no intention of renncing the HS)

Then instead of saying it (the "has me" part) loud, I instead said the phrase "But the Holy Spirit has me". I'm too afraid that I might've actually renounced the HS because of the "but" word (grammar and all). Also, when my brain is heavily cluttered with these "brain noises'" I inadvertently say it and/or mumble it....

I also have problems about the word curse. Like "I curse you (name)"... and with the word "irrevocably".

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So much like me.I know how you feel with all these "brain noises" and then thinking a thought to cancel it, then saying a not and then you dont even know for sure what you said or thought.