please help and pray

Many years,

dear brother,

the mystery of Divine love towards humans is exactly that, mystery. Only God knows why is God (Most Holy Trinity, to Them glory now and ever and unto the ages of ages) bothering with us. All that we, as humans, as His creation, have ever done is just curse God. Nothing we ever done was ever anything but curse. We are evil and by the day the world is getting worse.

And in knowing all this we are presented by a "stubborn love" of The King of Kings and God of Gods the Most Holy the Allmighty, Everpresent and Allknowing who decided before all ages that the humans will be His most precious creation. For He did not die for Angels who fell away, but prepared prison for them.

So, we as humans can with all our sinfulness and all our disgusting behaviour and murder and adultery and theft with all our fallen nature and all our blindness see only one thing and wait in only one hope.

Brother, you are not any worse or any better than any of us that ever lived this world. We are all murderers and sinners. Looking with hope in our faith we can do only one thing, and that is to never ever give up. Because we are bought by the most precious blood in all of existence and beyond it. For God came and become a Man. He was incarnated of the Holy Spirit and the Virgin Mary and became Man, fully God fully man in one body, so that we can become like God.

Waiting for and rejoicing because of everything that happened for us and our salvation: virgin birth and sinless life, death on the cross and descent into hades, glorious resurrection in the third day and ascension to heaven and sitting at the right hand side of God the Father and glorious second coming we can never give up. For every sin is already forgiven if we aks for that. Every sin, but the sin that is not asked for to be forgiven.

So, be brave my friend, do not listen the voices of surrender and voices of despair, but be brave. God has died sinless so that man can be forgiven sinfull. What can death say now? where is her sting? where is her victory? She has been destroyed, for Christ has risen from the dead and with death destroyed death.

Rejoice and never give up. For there is no bigger love of the Love. For God gave his Only Begotten Son so that we who believe in Him do not die but to gain eternal life.

All your pain and all your suffering has been felt and redeemed.

Be brave... and never give up.



Glory to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit, now and ever and unto the ages of ages...

your trust issues are familiar. I'm not sure your story but you definitely need to get into some safe counselling or twelve step group to help you (1) trust in God at the point your are THIS instant, not the person you want to be and (2) work on your emotional and spiritual self to find out what makes you feel this way (3) ask God's help to remove these defects of character that stand in the way of your being useful to God.
Its freedom, not a burden, to trust God. I have trouble with trust too, but it takes so much more energy and work...leaving you emotionally weary...to fight against help.

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Hi Honeycomb Son
So many excellent answers already. I too will pray for you, friend. I understand a lot of where you are coming from, for I was there once myself. I told God I hated him, I trusted no one, I was afraid of everyone (including God), I didn't love much, I felt different from anyone else, I felt God was treating me like a poor orphan, I was hurt a lot, I was sensitive and insecure, and I was self centered (not proud of myself - I just felt like everything negative that happened or was said related to me, as tho I was the center of the universe). And the more I tried to approach God, the more I felt He was like a cold blue star in the sky, constantly moving farther from me.

So far there are a lot of "I"s in my post. That's because I want you to see I really can relate, so that you may be encouraged and have hope when you see what God has done to me and my life. I am now and have been for years a joyous Christian, deeply in love with God, with a happy marriage, and a productive ministry. And I'm not just a fluke - I have seen God do this over and over with others. (If you want more details, please see my website listed on my profile page, especially the pages "Personal Testimony" and "Marital Madness".)

So what's the secret of my change?
*there are a lot of things here, so first was realizing I needed to take things one day at a time. "Inch by inch, everything is a cinch". The growth was gradual, but each little bit lightened my burden.
*Trusting in Christ alone as sinbearer and as the One who can get us to Heaven one day, without any works of our own (John 3:16, Ephesians 2:8-9). And realizing that we can never lose our salvation (Romans 623 with Romans 11:29, and John 10:28-29).
*Not worrying about the unpardonable sin (the sin against the Holy Ghost is: not believing Christ can save us from our sins, and never trusting Him as our Savior. So, as I had trusted Christ as my sinbearer, it was impossible for me to commit the unpardonable sin).
*praying that God would draw me closer and make me spiritually mature and guide me in my search (At first I barely had enough trust in Him to say the prayer, but He answered my "mustard seed" faith)
*learning that nature abhors a vacumn - so everytime a negative thought about God or myself would hit me, I wouldn't just stop thinking that, I would also repeat the truth to myself, often using Scripture to counter-act the lie. (for some verses, see "My Memory Verses" page on my website).
*seeing a Christian counselor (I was from a dysfunctional home and had a very unhappy marriage); in my case, I also had chemical depression, which he treated me for
*joining a Christian recovery group (large churches out there often have groups such as Overcomers or other Christian 12-Step groups) - this was a huge help, as I saw there were many others like me who shared their experience, strenth, and hope with me
*studying Christian Evidences for my doubts about the Bible. Once I was convinced it was without error, I was able to trust it and trust God -even the part's about God's love (after all, what more could someone do to prove their love, than by dying for us). For a short, basic search, excellent summaries to a searcher's questions can be found in: www.rb.org/questions/ , by then clicking on the Bible, or Christianity, or God, or www.rbc.org/ds/salvation and click on "Why we believe, evidences for Christian faith". These things can be helpful to non-Christians and Christians alike. Then as I prayed for God's help and guidance, it was with a lot more faith that He would help me in my growth.
*studying workbooks such as "Behold Your God", and some by Pat Springle, and "The Lies We Believe"
*gradually learning to love and accept myself, warts and all. Then I was better able to love God and others
*learning God wasn't mistreating me - instead, "He gives us everything we need for life and godliness." (II Peter 1:3) This also implies He would not give us something if it would hurt our godliness in the long run.
*learning to let go and let God - "They Found the Secret" can be ordered from a Christian bookstore - It tells the story of many Christians who learned how
*learning to see everything through God's eyes (eternity, myself, others, circumstances, etc.)

As I learned and absorbed these changes, I became: more trusting, more loving, less sensitive, more happy, less fearful, glad to serve Him, more secure and confident, unafraid of the future, less self-centered. These are not bragging, either - I never could have done them without God and my fellow Christians. As I said, if you want more details, please see my profile for my website address.

How do I see God now? I was thinking about this just the other day. God the Father - as though He is smiling down at me, as I (a baby) am sitting in His lap and laughing for joy. God the Son - He and I sit across the table from each other - He reaches out and squeezes my hand and lovingly smiles at me; later we go for a walk through a meadow, enjoying each other's company though we're not saying much. God the Holy Spirit (I call Him Shalom) - we are standing side by side, with His arm around my shoulder.

Friend, I am so encouraged at the fact that you know you can't accomplish everything by yourself, that you were open about your problems, and that you reached out for help (this means you have done the "First Step") - the journey takes a while, but there are precious stones and pieces of gold to pick up all along the way. And some day you will be able to bless others with your abundance.

God bless you - aloha in Jesus.

Eventually you will be able to "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." (Prov. 3:5-6)
Isa 55:11 11 "… my word that goes out from my mouth… will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire ."
Jer 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Hi again HoneyComb Son

Forgot to mention a workbook that helped me trust God tremendously - "Behold Your God" by Myrna Alexander. Would have to be ordered, written in the 70s I think, was on Christian bestseller list for more than a year.

(Now for the bad news - the subtitle is: A Woman's Workshop on the Attributes of God - but there is tons of good stuff for both sexes, VERY practical)

Some wonderful Scripture verses in www.fathersloveletter.com - a very beautiful presentation.

And especially for you, friend:

"One day at a time, sweet Jesus
That’s all I’m asking from you
Just give me the strength to do every day what I have to do
Yesterday’s gone sweet Jesus
Tomorrow may never be mine
Lord help me today
Show me the way
One day at a time."

(Lyricist unknown)

Aloha in Jesus

FEAR = False Evidence Appearing Real.

Fear is not the opposite of faith unbelief is. Fear stems from our ignorance. Ignorance is the number one weapon Satan uses to destroy believers.

If you've been let down by people you've trusted throughout your life, it is very hard to trust God when you can't see him. If you've never really known trust you are ignorant in knowing/understanding how to trust. (I've been there)

The fact that you are aware of so many of your issues, IMO, is a positive thing. The Holy Spirit has revealed things in your life that God wants to destroy. Be patient, ask Him to guide you into which areas of your life He wants to work in first. Allow Him to prioritze the list, He knows you better than you know yourself. You need to be willing to face your past.

I've had times when I had to got off on God. Telling Him things like, how can I believe that you love me when you allowed me to be raped, my father left when I was four, my mother and step father where alcholics, etc. But praise God!!! I needed to face those issues and anger, hurt, disappointment, etc I had towards God in order for Him to put scars were the wounds once were.

It's a hard process by one well worth it.

I decree and declare that our Heavenly Father will manifest His loving presence in your life and that you will allow Him to heal your heart. I disallow the enemy from holding you in bondage anymore. I bind all of the enemy's strategies, tactics and mind games from causing you anymore confusion, doubt or frustration. I call on the angelic host of our Heavenly Father to fight off all demonic attempts of attacking you. In Jesus name I pray. AMEN!