Obesity/Binge Eating

I am glad I saw this thread tonight.

I have been struggling with the same exact feelings as in your OP. I have been heavy all my life. I am always the fattest person I know. I can never find clothes that look good, and I never feel good.

I have raised denial to an art form. But mirrors never lie, nor do photographs or videos. I hate the way I look, and yet I don't even know where to start to change it. I eat when I am very emotional, whatever emotion it is. I do it to comfort myself. I am addicted to refined sugar. I hate myself for being such a big fat waste of space.

So yeah, I do know how you feel, and I want you to know that. I would love to talk to ya sometime. Sister to sister. And I am praying for you.

s S

Ill pray for youS

I know I'm angry so I prolly don't entirely mean this :

I hate when people bring up the fat word and use it as a comparison. For example:
"You are not as fat as that other person"

It makes me sick and drives me crazy.

I want people to mention fat only if they are trying to help somebody or themselves. I have started seeing the real me. The person who excercised for over 3 months for the first time in his life. The courage and determination it took.

The biggest reason diets fail is that when cutting back on food, I think we might be facing our real selves instead of hiding behind food. And what we see is an empty person. That in itself is a connection, One worth exploring. It was never about competition, it's always been about sacrifice and determination and patience and persistance.

madison,
you are not alone. There are others here, including myself that have Binge eating disorder which is now officially on the DMV. Anorexia and Bullimia have been well known eating disorders for awhile, its only recently that they finally acknowledged Binge eating disorder, which is bingeing without the purging. I have struggled with BED since i was about 18. I have tried so many diets. Some have worked for short periods of time. It is so disheartening. I have also been in and out of OA. I will be praying for you. I was 301 at my top weight. I know how hard it is. Just don't give up. Keep trying and use others as support and pray to God for help. I don't know if i will ever be a normal weight again, but i never stop hoping. I think Eating disorders are on the top of the list of worst addictions because as someone said earlier, we MUST EAT every day of our life. I can't imagine an alcholic who was told they MUST drink atleast 3 times a day but must stay away from it besides those times! Same with drug addicts. KWIM? Its sooo hard! PM me anytime if you want to talk!
karen

I'd say sorry, but it has no meaning to me. I don't really hate people, so I'm changing the post. Peace and Love.

Hang in there sweetie,
I'm in the same boat. I don't quite weigh that much, but I am headed there fast if I don't controll myself. I gained 30 pounds in about 6 months. I eat because I am nervose and feel alone. I need the food to "fill" the void in me. Have you thought of seeing a psychologist or a nutritionist? My sister who is 300lbs just started seeing a psychologist who is also a nutritionist, it seems to be working.

I'm just now starting to control of binge eating (take control nothing...I'm giving it to GOD let HIM have control over it)...It took wieghing 397 pounds...type 2 diabetes...high blood pressure and a nagging wife, but I'm starting to see progress...43 pounds worth of progress...I'm eating healthier stuff and am excersing, but you know what...that's right now...what tommorow may bring I don't have a clue...it might all stop tommorow...I might get hit by a bus tommorow...who knows...It's one day at a time...heck...with me right now it's 5 minutes at a time...we have to admit we are powerless over food and can not free ourselves...then go on from there...if you need anything (or anyone else on this board for that matter) feel free to PM me...

AGAPE!!...

ken

Firstly,
I just want to thank you all for your honesty and admire you all for your strength. I believe the original question of this thread was- I purge but still remain about the same weight- In alot of cases of bulimic people remain the same weight (because of the purging and binge eating almost evens themselves out). And thus why bulimia is such a 'hidden' problem within our society.

The only advice I really have is to seek the help you need and I commend you Madison for doing that- its a brave step- and a long journey- so hang in there even when you have set backs (and set backs will come- they are part of the recovery process).

Finally, I will leave you with some bible quotes that I hope will inspire you all-

1 Samual 16:7- The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.

Proverbs 11:22- Like a gold ring in a pig's snout is a beautiful women who shows no discretion.

1 Peter 3:3-4- Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.

Proverbs 31:30- Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting, but a women who fears the Lord is to be praised.

1 Tim 4:4- For everything God created is good.

Gen 1:27- So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created man, male and female he created them.
&
Psalm 27:4- ....to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord....

*****Therefore if God is beautiful and we are created in His image, then are we not beautiful?***************

-- God Bless guys and I pray you find the strenght and faith to overcome this because as God's creation you deserve better! (I know its easier said then done, but don't loose the faith).

-LeeLee. .

I can absolutely relate to so many people who posted here. I've suffered from anorexia and bulimia, which got me down to about 115 pounds, and after a traumatic incident started binging instead and went up to 250 pounds in about 2 years. Of all the EDs, this one has been the most painful emotionally.

I know what I have to do, it should be simple, just eat healthier. But it's not simple, it's very scary for me now to cut back on food. I eat because I'm lonely or scared or bored or angry, any uncomfortable feeling really. And if I stop I'll have to face all of that.

Thank you Lee_Lee for those wonderful verses, I'll make a copy of them if that's okay.

Love and prayers,
Amy

I am a binge eater also. It is so hard to control yourself to the bird scraps it seems models and movie stars follow. The best reason to stop binging is not for ourselves, but for God.

Madison, I understand your struggles. I've been losing weight but hit a brick wall recently because having to do some spriitual/mental work. The steps work, but most importantly, trusting Jesus. Its hard, I know...i'm there too. I am finally just a little under 300. I have along way to go but dont' give up, keep going back to OA. The one I attend is so small, and I'm not allowed to say Jesus, I have to say HP. So I also attend Celebrate Recovery at my church. This has been helping alot. I lost another pound. Sounds minimal, but its movement downwards, and more importantly, I feel communion with my God again. He loves us just as we are, and wants good things for us.

I've had problems with binge eating until I learnt a system where you have to work for your food. What happens is you rid all the cupboards of junk food so you only have reasonably healthy food in your house. And then you have to work for your food; say make the food your'e about to eat or make it earlier in the day, or the night before.

Greenriser said:

I've had problems with binge eating until I learnt a system where you have to work for your food. What happens is you rid all the cupboards of junk food so you only have reasonably healthy food in your house. And then you have to work for your food; say make the food your'e about to eat or make it earlier in the day, or the night before.

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Good idea And remember madison you are not alone.I'm glad to hear you are doing better.

that is so awesome madison!!!!!!! You keep going girl, focus on Jesus and remember to ask for His help daily!

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I am a food addict and a binger who didn't purge---hence I was very overweight.

Since June 28th I've been attending meetings of Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous. It's a pretty strict program--you get a food plan from your sponsor and must call every morning and committ your food plan to your sponsor---but I need that discipline and so far have lost 10 pounds. I highly recommend these 12 step meetings. Google "Food Addicts" and their website should come up for you.

God bless you.

I've been excercising and just moved up from two laps around the park to three laps.

tonight I had about 15 cookies and a piece of cake I feel awful and abit of denial, and I don't understand the complexities, can someone pray for me and also can you tell my mind and stomach to shut up and stop being so selfish! I think I stuffed around with my hormones and nature again, pray those hormones get back in gear please.

amyjs said:

Thank you Lee_Lee for those wonderful verses, I'll make a copy of them if that's okay.

Love and prayers,
Amy

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NOT a problem matey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they are pretty cool hey! .........glad you liked them

-LeeLee