Recent content by MJJ

I apologize. I should not have been so harsh in blaming God. I'm under considerable stress and I'm very confused right now. I desperately want something to stop that I have no power to stop. I want to get back to rebuilding a life and now everything is on hold again while I live in terror. I...

I'm having serious problems with my relationship, or lack thereof, with God and His apparent unsatable need to show His displeasure with me. I'm going to gloss over oceans here for the sake of brevity but this will still read long. I apologize for that but context is required to get this...

When I posted what I did I wasn't looking for drama or attention. I happen to be signed up to receive emails from this site with the many essays that are written to answer life's questions. So I knew there was a forum here where I could just get out on the page how desperate I've become. If...

I truly do appreciate well wishes, very much so. There was a time, until very recently, that my response to someone praying for me would be a heartfelt thank you as that is one of the kindest things you can do for another. I'm still thankful but I've lost all faith that any prayers will have any...

I fear this is going to be a fairly epic saga. That's my warning to potential readers. I just feel like I have a lot of inner turmoil and I just want to write it out because there is no one to talk to. Somethings have always been true about me; I'll gloss over the reasons why for the sake of...

I have been very haunted by the thought of my addiction hurting or killing someone. When I got my first DUI in January I was so scared of what could have happened that I called the treatment facility the next day and went right inpatient. I've been clean most of the year until now I knuckled...

I'm 39 and have been long addicted to alcohol as a coping mechanism for panic and depression. In January I drove when I thought I was fine (that's how sick I was) and wrecked my car. The County let me into ARD which was a 60 day suspension of license, classes, fines, and all the usual. It was...