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Recent content by cypher000

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    Struggling

    Erica - First of all - you have nothing to fear, you are already so aware of yourself. I don't know that therapy has go back into the painful times you have tucked away. I know for sure I too have times I don't remember. These things have remained mine through therapy as I have made the choice...
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    Struggling

    Erica - Yes, I understand... I have just begun to understand who I am. It has taken 49 years... You are so much further ahead of where I was just by understanding that you have BPD - My emptiness still haunts me as I know I am incapable of having a close and healthy relationship with a woman. I...
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    Holidays and Birthdays.

    Holiday's area time when we feel as though families are supposed to come together. We see it happening all around us, and yet, we remain alone, whether we are surrounded by others or not. No wonder this time is so difficult. God has put us here to be in relationships, the very things we long...
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    Love thy enemy...

    Elman - I do not think it to be wise to pick and choose which parts of the Bible (the Word of God) are true to us and which parts are not. This world is under the rule of Satan - just look around and you will see his influence everywhere. Look and see how easy his job is to convince us to chase...
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    Love thy enemy...

    Emmy - You are correct in saying that Satan will never be love. He hates us from the very depths of his being and will never care one bit about who he destroys. On the other hand, with hatred in your heart, it becomes an open door for Satan to enter and destroy... Love is to hate as good is to...
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    Love thy enemy...

    Who is our greatest enemy of all? So, does this mean we should love Satan himself? Does God love Satan since he is one of God's lost children? Does Satan love God? Let me also add that God is all-knowing and has left nothing to chance; therefore Satan's role on this earth was always part of...
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    antidepressants, diet/exercise

    Perky, Oh my... I have been through major depressions 3 times in my life and also have Dysthymia (low grade constant depression). I have been on many different medications - too many to list or even remember... My last major/clinical depression began in 1998 and lasted for more than 6 years...
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    So much Pain

    jenn - I have been alone for a very long time now. I know the feeling of being empty inside and how difficult it is to be alone in your life... I'm really sorry you are struggling right now... Father, I ask you Lord, to bring Jenn peace in her heart and contentment in her life, please Lord...
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    my personal struggle

    RR - First of all, it is so very clear that you are extremely intelligent and highly aware of yourself. Along with the trust you have developed in your therapist and psychiatrist and your obvious whole hearted faith in Christ Jesus you have made all the right choices. It will not be easy, even...
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    my personal struggle

    RR - It sounds from your writing that perhaps you've been recently diagnosed with BPD. If so, I too was diagnosed late in life - at age 47. I was amazed when I read the 9 traits since they absolutely defined me - something I had been searching for all my life. I could never figure out who I was...
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    I need support!

    I too have destroyed many lives in the wake of my illness. It is not something I am proud of, but I do know that the destruction was not all my fault. Though many of my emotions were out of control, their responses were not of a calming nature, but rather added fuel to the fire of hell already...
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    I need support!

    As one who suffers with BPD I know all too well the effects of being rejected and ostracized by our families and friends. Rejection is a driving component of the disorder and causes a great deal of pain in the person afflicted. Love and kindness is the greatest of all healers. To show your love...
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    I need support!

    The blindness goes on...
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    BPD fellowship thread

    Ashes - Do we not all have something to share no matter who we are? I have BPD and though I am not so happy to have self-destructed all my life, I have experienced a life few will ever have the opportunity to see as I have. I may not ever be capable of having a close relationship with another...
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    onset times?

    HowardDean, You have received some good advice here...If necessary perhaps it is time to seek professional counseling for both yourself and your son to assure things do not escalate further out of control. I am sorry he has been bullied, this is always a very tough situation. My best friend in...
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