Blunted emotions might be starting

[Lady Bug]

Hi, I'm starting to struggle (after all these months) with the beginnings of emotional blunting regarding my dad's passing.

While my brother calls me and tells me he cries every now and then (I'm not deriding that because that's how I used to be), I'm struggling with a new thing in which I am feeling frustrated by the effects of my dad's words and actions during my life that might have led in part to the stage I am at in my life now and I don't know if it's exactly a lack of forgiveness but a feeling of frustration/anger at the consequences, and it's causing me to not be able to feel the emotions I first did in late May and during the month of June.

I do believe though, that my dad somehow knows the truth now, God has shown him. Same goes for my mom.

 

[Michie]

I pray this daily. If you are too exhausted, listen to the contemporary version of the prayer in song offered below the text. I find it not only comforting but helpful.

The Miracle Prayer

Lord Jesus, I come before you, just as I am, I am sorry for my sins, I repent of my sins, please forgive me...

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[Lady Bug]

I pray this daily. If you are too exhausted, listen to the contemporary version of the prayer in song offered below the text. I find it not only comforting but helpful.

The Miracle Prayer

Lord Jesus, I come before you, just as I am, I am sorry for my sins, I repent of my sins, please forgive me...

mycatholic.life

Wow I hadn't seen that one before. Thank you so much. There are times where I am almost too tired to pray the regular routine I have, and I ask myself if I have only one prayer to say on any given day, due to being too tired, what would it be.

 

[Michie]

Wow I hadn't seen that one before. Thank you so much. There are times where I am almost too tired to pray the regular routine I have, and I ask myself if I have only one prayer to say on any given day, due to being too tired, what would it be.

Listen to the contemporary version of it sung below the prayer. I usually recite it every morning and add my prayer intentions to it. But when I’m just so frazzled can’t make a good attempt at it without my mind going all over the place, I’ll pray the version in song. It helps relieve my anxiety as well.

 

[mourningdove~]

Hi, I'm starting to struggle (after all these months) with the beginnings of emotional blunting regarding my dad's passing.

While my brother calls me and tells me he cries every now and then (I'm not deriding that because that's how I used to be), I'm struggling with a new thing in which I am feeling frustrated by the effects of my dad's words and actions during my life that might have led in part to the stage I am at in my life now and I don't know if it's exactly a lack of forgiveness but a feeling of frustration/anger at the consequences, and it's causing me to not be able to feel the emotions I first did in late May and during the month of June.

Healing from loss is a journey, often with many ups and downs.
Sometimes we 'feel' alot ... other times, it's like we are numb and feeling nothing.
All very normal, uncomfortable and concerning as it may be at times.

For me, the important part has been to feel the feelings, or not, however 'the grief ship' sails ...
holding onto Christ at all times, like The Life Preserver that He is!

May God continue to bless your healing journey.

 

[Lady Bug]

Healing from loss is a journey, often with many ups and downs.
Sometimes we 'feel' alot ... other times, it's like we are numb and feeling nothing.
All very normal, uncomfortable and concerning as it may be at times.

For me, the important part has been to feel the feelings, or not, however 'the grief ship' sails ...
holding onto Christ at all times, like The Life Preserver that He is!

May God continue to bless your healing journey.

I do think that the blunting could be a defense mechanism against completely falling apart.

 

[mourningdove~]

I do think that the blunting could be a defense mechanism against completely falling apart.

I think you may be right.
We can only handle so much intense emotion, and then a reprieve from it is good.

It's mysterious how it goes, but the body does seem to know how to 'take care' of us in emotionally challenging times.