Chocolate Vanilla's Journal ^w^ =3

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

Did he ever care? I wonder how many Women he has told "I love you" to.

 

[RileyG]

I wonder if he still loves me or if he never loved me at all....

He's always hiding his real feelings from me. I never know what to believe from him.

But I think God wants me to be with him again.

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Let go and let God.

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

My Ex Husband is a complete liar.

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

Angry and hurt. I never want to be with him again.

 

[RileyG]

My Ex Husband is a complete liar.

I’m so sorry

 

[RileyG]

Angry and hurt. I never want to be with him again.

God took him out of your life for a reason. Trust in God and his plan.

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

I’m so sorry

[Hugs] Thank you my Friend/Brother In Christ.

 

[RileyG]

[Hugs] Thank you my Friend/Brother In Christ.

Keep praying for me, please!

Blessings

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

Keep praying for me, please!

Blessings

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

Thank You God for making me and helping me grow more everyday.

Thank You for not giving up on me and bringing me this far.

Because of You, I now have confidence that I never had as a teenager.

Because of You, I am able to love myself finally.

Thank You God for being my Friend when I had no friends.

I am very grateful to have You in my life now.

I never want to forget all You've done for me, and that You are my Creator.

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

Sometimes I really can't believe how far God has brought me and how much He has changed me for the better.

I believe He gave me the desire for True Love and for a Soulmate for a reason!!

 

[bèlla]

Whatever we feed will grow. If you fill your ears with love songs and things that make you think about relationships you’re going to crave them more. The bible warns us not to awaken love before its time. You’re stirring a heart that has no outlet for expression which will cause you to respond to the smallest inkling of expression because you’re needy. The best thing you can do is redirect your thoughts. You need something to focus on besides love. If you want to be a wife focus on the that instead. The practical things that come with marriage. Like cooking, cleaning, and managing a home. If you have room for a garden start one or a hobby you enjoy.

Don’t live in your head or spend your days with imaginings. It won’t bring him any faster You have to settle yourself internally to provide the peace he seeks. That isn’t possible if you’re all over the place. This is the number one thing men are asking for today. Not romance, sex, or the other things women assume. Life is stressful for them right now and they’re looking for solace. Not drama, arguments, or mouthiness. But someone who respects him, that he gets along with, who adds to his peace of mind. The rest is moot if that’s lacking.

~bella

 

[RileyG]

Thank you! God bless!

 

[DragonFox91]

Angry and hurt. I never want to be with him again.

I am sorry you are so hurt. You're going thru the fires. You are a very tough person.
I'd like to see you find the right person & say 'CF! I met someone!'

Whatever we feed will grow. If you fill your ears with love songs and things that make you think about relationships you’re going to crave them more. The bible warns us not to awaken love before its time. You’re stirring a heart that has no outlet for expression which will cause you to respond to the smallest inkling of expression because you’re needy. The best thing you can do is redirect your thoughts. You need something to focus on besides love. If you want to be a wife focus on the that instead. The practical things that come with marriage. Like cooking, cleaning, and managing a home. If you have room for a garden start one or a hobby you enjoy.

I wish someone had told me that when I was much much younger. But it's everywhere!

Don’t live in your head or spend your days with imaginings. It won’t bring him any faster You have to settle yourself internally to provide the peace he seeks. That isn’t possible if you’re all over the place. This is the number one thing men are asking for today. Not romance, sex, or the other things women assume. Life is stressful for them right now and they’re looking for solace. Not drama, arguments, or mouthiness. But someone who respects him, that he gets along with, who adds to his peace of mind. The rest is moot if that’s lacking.

~bella

Yep

Thank You God for making me and helping me grow more everyday.

Thank You for not giving up on me and bringing me this far.

Because of You, I now have confidence that I never had as a teenager.

Because of You, I am able to love myself finally.

Thank You God for being my Friend when I had no friends.

I am very grateful to have You in my life now.

I never want to forget all You've done for me, and that You are my Creator.

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You have found the missing coin. & he found his missing coin. He came for you @GodAndChocolateVanilla

 

[bèlla]

I wish someone had told me that when I was much much younger. But it's everywhere!

They probably didn’t say it because men and women during their age didn’t have our enticements. Most of their fun was found in the company of friends or one another. There wasn’t a lot to do at home. Don’t get me wrong. Love songs aren’t bad and it’s fine to enjoy a favorite every now and then. But if you’re not in a committed relationship or courtship you don’t need to hear that every day. You’ll find yourself depressed, upset or sinning.

Yep

I might know a thing a two about men. ;-)

~bella

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

Whatever we feed will grow. If you fill your ears with love songs and things that make you think about relationships you’re going to crave them more. The bible warns us not to awaken love before its time. You’re stirring a heart that has no outlet for expression which will cause you to respond to the smallest inkling of expression because you’re needy. The best thing you can do is redirect your thoughts. You need something to focus on besides love. If you want to be a wife focus on the that instead. The practical things that come with marriage. Like cooking, cleaning, and managing a home. If you have room for a garden start one or a hobby you enjoy.

Don’t live in your head or spend your days with imaginings. It won’t bring him any faster You have to settle yourself internally to provide the peace he seeks. That isn’t possible if you’re all over the place. This is the number one thing men are asking for today. Not romance, sex, or the other things women assume. Life is stressful for them right now and they’re looking for solace. Not drama, arguments, or mouthiness. But someone who respects him, that he gets along with, who adds to his peace of mind. The rest is moot if that’s lacking.

~bella

Thank you for this bella!! Thank you for taking the time to give me this good advice!! [Hugs] You have been kind to me multiple times and I won't forget it!! [Hugs]

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

I am sorry you are so hurt. You're going thru the fires. You are a very tough person.
I'd like to see you find the right person & say 'CF! I met someone!'


I wish someone had told me that when I was much much younger. But it's everywhere!

Yep

You have found the missing coin. & he found his missing coin. He came for you @GodAndChocolateVanilla

Thank you my Friend. [Hugs] I will be just as happy when you tell me that you have found the right one too!!

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

God is helping me work on myself more. I am very grateful to Him.

 

[Learning always]

My heart fails, but I want to be righteous and good hearted.

I’m not who I used to be, but I still am not good enough.

I still struggle. I still have some shallowness in my heart. But God taught me that True Love is more important than physical attraction. What someone looks like does not matter!! Only who they are on the inside matters!!

I am not being hard on myself.

I want to be good hearted and love everyone God made.

I won’t settle with being less!!

If we don’t all love each other, then what is the point in being here?

We need to love each other!! There is nothing without Love.

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Well said.
We should try to love each other daily. But that's not easy, and we have to learn.
I used to think it's easy peasy, but now I realise it requires efforts.
Loving others but others ignore you and don't show gratitude causes pain (in CF). I have to learn to handle that too.