- Aug 2, 2022
- 135
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- Country
- Sri Lanka
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- Male
- Faith
- Christian
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- In Relationship
What should I do in order to be set free from these deplorable conditions once and for all? I allegedly have schizophrenia (according to my doctor) and also a very irritating skin rash that is not being healed despite prayers. I think that the skin rash is a side effect from the disgusting antipsychotic medication that doctors gave me. I have no trust in doctors because they hurt me in the past, I was brutally assaulted for no reason by 5 psych nurses and they caused me extreme pain. I have tried every medication under the sun and I'm sick of this fruitless search for the "right medication". If God exists, why won't he heal me? My condition is untenable. I have heard an interior voice that I mistakenly believed to be the Holy Spirit, this voice told me to do things that make no sense, like walking outside in the nighttime in the freezing cold. I thought I received private revelation, however in retrospect, I have begun to question this narrative because the things that I experienced proved to be false. I think I have been deceived when I look at the events of my life in retrospect. I try to pray and to "have a relationship" with God, but it's like he is completely deaf to my prayers and he hasn't sent the Holy Spirit for me to set me free from this deplorable condition, which I suspect is spiritual in nature. I have gone to confession for all of my sins, yet I am not healed. I long to be set free and restored. When will God intervene in my miserable life? What the hell do you do in this abominable condition? I thought to myself that maybe the cause of my illness is spiritual in nature, in that case I need deliverance ministry and/or exorcism. Life was not supposed to be this way. My suffering is untenable, and I need advice on what to do.