You have reached the stage of totally deluding yourself by not only ignoring the evidence the moon does not emit its own light, but what is presented before your very eyes.
Here is a picture I took of the moon.
I hope you are not going to make one of your incredibly stupid comments and declare this is another one of my fake images.
What do notice about the image, clearly it is not uniformly lit.
At and near the boundary where the dark and light hemispheres of the moon meet known as the terminator what else do you notice, there are crater details which become less evident the further away from the terminator.
On the opposite side of the terminator there is no crater detail.
At the terminator lunar sunrises and sunsets occur which cast shadows and accentuates the crater detail.
I'm sure even you can comprehend an external light source is required to cast shadows and if the moon is creating its own light instead there can be no shadow detail.