Lately, I've found myself increasingly compelled to get gifts on behalf of others, even though it's not my business to do so. At the time, it feels like a great idea. I'm thinking, "This would bring joy to them, and everyone's happiness will multiply!" Random warm and fuzzy feelings. However, as time passes, I start questioning it, wondering if I should seek permission before taking any action and then feeling strange about it. In the moment, I'm so focused on everyone being happy that I forget that it's not my place. Only after I've got the gift and sit with it for a while do I go 'this is weird...'.
Currently, I'm sitting in church, awaiting a meeting, with a bouquet of flowers and chocolates intended for someone else's girlfriend. I saw them at the grocery store and thought, "You know... She'd REALLY love that. Just randomly receive flowers and chocolates for no reason. I think that would make her very happy, and then he would be happy too because she's happy!" But it's not my place to get gifts on his behalf. "Hey, I bought this for your girlfriend. Give them to her from you." What? What am I doing...? What if he misunderstands my intentions? I just want to see her happy, which would make him happy, and I'd be happy for both of them. Yet, it still feels like it's not my place to do it. So, I'm caught in this internal struggle, going between thinking it's not a big deal and feeling like I should immediately throw the flowers and chocolates in the parking lot and forget about it.
Edit: I have yet to give the other gifts to the people I've deemed to be the giver, so this will be the test of whether or not it is received well, but I'm nervous that I'm going to offend someone.