Have you ever had one of those dreams wherein you know it's a dream and you decide you now want to wake-up, and then you "wake up," only to shortly realize you're still in the dream, and so you "wake up" again, then wonder if you're really awake, and so you "wake up" again, and it takes upwards if a few tries before you actually wake up? I've had such dreams, and I'm wondering how this same effect might occur as to one's salvation/being born again. I wonder, what if, when I think I'm saved/born again, I'm not really saved yet but maybe am in the process of moving toward actually entering the kingdom. But am not there, yet. Then, what if I get saved after that...only to wonder again if that was really it, or only another step closer to it.
By this kind of thing, one could be seemingly getting closer and closer to the kingdom of God, but never actually entering it. It is discouraging to think that one could be inside such a "process," such that one never actually gets saved.
I disagree with those who say salvation is a process. The problem with a process is, you may never make it all the way through the process. I understand Justification is in a moment, but the next stage - Sanctification - is a process (which goes on for one's whole life). There is strong biblical backing for salvation-in-a-moment. For instance, Jesus told the paralytic He had just healed, "Your sins are forgiven you." That was no process, that forgiveness occurred in a moment!
The problem with me is that I keep thinking I'm saved, then doubting or wondering. My OCD exacerbates this problem. For instance, I was sure I was saved this past Monday, and was convinced I was saved straight through Wednesday and into Thursday. But I spent all day yesterday (Friday) doubting I was saved. Today, I tried to comfort myself with the thought that "I was saved, Monday through Wednesday, and salvation is permanent, so I'm saved."
But then, I have just kept wondering, today. It's discouraging to think I might be in a process wherein I have to "wake up"/"be born again" some number of times before I really am. I wish I could bypass the process and get saved NOW.
By this kind of thing, one could be seemingly getting closer and closer to the kingdom of God, but never actually entering it. It is discouraging to think that one could be inside such a "process," such that one never actually gets saved.
I disagree with those who say salvation is a process. The problem with a process is, you may never make it all the way through the process. I understand Justification is in a moment, but the next stage - Sanctification - is a process (which goes on for one's whole life). There is strong biblical backing for salvation-in-a-moment. For instance, Jesus told the paralytic He had just healed, "Your sins are forgiven you." That was no process, that forgiveness occurred in a moment!
The problem with me is that I keep thinking I'm saved, then doubting or wondering. My OCD exacerbates this problem. For instance, I was sure I was saved this past Monday, and was convinced I was saved straight through Wednesday and into Thursday. But I spent all day yesterday (Friday) doubting I was saved. Today, I tried to comfort myself with the thought that "I was saved, Monday through Wednesday, and salvation is permanent, so I'm saved."
But then, I have just kept wondering, today. It's discouraging to think I might be in a process wherein I have to "wake up"/"be born again" some number of times before I really am. I wish I could bypass the process and get saved NOW.