But, Jesus didn't teach that people should pray for a feeling in their heart. I've said this several times now but it seems you simply do not want to acknowledge that you've tried a method which Jesus himself did not teach. It is just testable, observable logic that if you do not follow the instructions, you will not get a proper result. That you do not want to acknowledge this strongly indicates that you are not thinking scientifically or rationally about this, but rather emotionally. You want the experiment to fail so you're deliberately performing it in an improper way and then pretending the results are valid.
You seem to be trying to change the subject.
I said I prayed for Jesus to come into my heart.
You asked me what it would have been like if that had worked.
I said that if it had worked I'd have felt Jesus in my heart.
Now you are trying to get around it by saying that Jesus never told people to do that. I never said he did. I am simply saying what I did, and I am answering your question about what it would have been like if it had worked.
I also notice that you didn't reply to my comment about how I won't expect someone can give me something good as long as I do something first if they can't produce evidence that they can live up to their end of the bargain. I take it that means you agree with me on that point?
I guess this is your way of suggesting that you think God is hardening your heart?
No.
You say that there are people who won't follow God's rules even if they have the evidence he exists, yet in the example you gave, that's not what was happening. Pharaoh wasn't refusing to obey God because he didn't want to follow God's laws. He wasn't obeying God because God was forcing him. You don't get to blame someone for things out of their control.
I guess this is your way of saying that despite God hardening your heart, you think he should also so powerfully overwhelm you with his might that you have no choice but to capitulate to his will? No, if God wanted robots he would have made robots. What he's looking for are people who want what he has to offer. If you do not want what he's offering, do not blame him for not forcing you to want it. Just plainly say that you do not want it. That would be the more honest approach.
All this stuff about whether he exists or not is just game playing. Your comments up to know strongly indicate that you would not obey him even if you did believe in his existence. You've already hinted as much with your rather brazen suggestion that forsaking all and working for love (as opposed to working for money) is impossible. Your husband believes in the existence of God, but he's not obeying Jesus (based on what you've shared here) and if you were to mention these teachings to him, he'd probably have some convenient excuse to explain them away, as though he is some kind of exception to the standards Jesus set out for his followers, or that Jesus didn't really mean what he said, or perhaps, like you yourself have shared, that it is impossible to obey Jesus. Whatever the excuse may be, the result will be the same; Jesus' teachings get ignored.
Since you start out with a completely wrong assumption, I suggest you go and rethink this whole bit, okay?
And considering how God forced Pharaoh to act in a certain way, would you say to him, "If you DO want what he's offering, do not blame him for not forcing you to NOT want it."
And in what way is my husband not obeying Jesus?