I do not feel well please help me and calm me down please i worry a lot

[Kostilaks]

The last weeks, compulsions are stronger because, automatically, they are accompanied with some scary thoughts without my will.

I remember having a compulsion not to watch a specific dialogue, I think, from a tv episode on youtube. I do not remember how this compulsion was created, but I think, I remember trying to find which video it was, in order, not to click it in the future.

I do not remember what thoughts without my will popped up or how strong they were and I cant confirm if they were 100% without my will. the thoughts without my will that created this compulsion were about a promise to God not to watch that dialogue.

I worry if the first compulsion was "must watch that scene" and because I was so bored and frustrated to do the compulsion, maybe, my organism changed the compulsion, in a second, from "must watch" to "must not watch". maybe it was like a voice in my head that sugggested me to make a new promise to God not to do the tiring compulsion and this suggestion relieves me for a second and my organism, makes these thoughts that I cant confirm if they are without my will or are both with and without my will. and they are accompanied with more scary thoughts without my will from my subconscious.

is this a valid promise? I accidentally watched some seconds from that scene and I worry now.

 

[Jamesone5]

The last weeks, compulsions are stronger because, automatically, they are accompanied with some scary thoughts without my will.

I remember having a compulsion not to watch a specific dialogue, I think, from a tv episode on youtube. I do not remember how this compulsion was created, but I think, I remember trying to find which video it was, in order, not to click it in the future.

I do not remember what thoughts without my will popped up or how strong they were and I cant confirm if they were 100% without my will. the thoughts without my will that created this compulsion were about a promise to God not to watch that dialogue.

I worry if the first compulsion was "must watch that scene" and because I was so bored and frustrated to do the compulsion, maybe, my organism changed the compulsion, in a second, from "must watch" to "must not watch". maybe it was like a voice in my head that sugggested me to make a new promise to God not to do the tiring compulsion and this suggestion relieves me for a second and my organism, makes these thoughts that I cant confirm if they are without my will or are both with and without my will. and they are accompanied with more scary thoughts without my will from my subconscious.

is this a valid promise? I accidentally watched some seconds from that scene and I worry now.

I pray for you as well.

You must guard yourself against these evil thoughts. the only recommendation I would make is to stop watching these u-tube videos and concentrate totally on the Word of God. It certainty helped me when I once had to deal with the horror of seeing my only son in death after as suicide.

 

[Tone]

It seems to me that the thing about the obsessives and/or compulsives are those whose volume is turned up more than others. When I say "volume", I mean what we can hear from our flesh/carnal nature/that which is perishing. The flesh is constantly desiring and doing what is contrary to the spiritual things of Yah (The Creator)...including breaking promises, blaspheming, worrying, etc...

"14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do. But what I hate, I do."

We all deal with this, it's just that some people's volumes are more turned up than others'.

Abba Yah please Breathe a Fresh Breath into our lives and give us ears to hear Your Voice, and raise us up in Yahshua ha Mashiach. Amen.

 

[Jamesone5]

I pray for you as well.

You must guard yourself against these evil thoughts. the only recommendation I would make is to stop watching these u-tube videos and concentrate totally on the Word of God. It certainty helped me when I once had to deal with the horror of seeing my only son in death after as suicide.

Also consider this verse:

Philippians 4:7
and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and MINDS through Christ Jesus.

to me, I have found it mean that if we trust Christ enough to guard our minds, He will do so.

 

[Mark Quayle]

The last weeks, compulsions are stronger because, automatically, they are accompanied with some scary thoughts without my will.

I remember having a compulsion not to watch a specific dialogue, I think, from a tv episode on youtube. I do not remember how this compulsion was created, but I think, I remember trying to find which video it was, in order, not to click it in the future.

I do not remember what thoughts without my will popped up or how strong they were and I cant confirm if they were 100% without my will. the thoughts without my will that created this compulsion were about a promise to God not to watch that dialogue.

I worry if the first compulsion was "must watch that scene" and because I was so bored and frustrated to do the compulsion, maybe, my organism changed the compulsion, in a second, from "must watch" to "must not watch". maybe it was like a voice in my head that sugggested me to make a new promise to God not to do the tiring compulsion and this suggestion relieves me for a second and my organism, makes these thoughts that I cant confirm if they are without my will or are both with and without my will. and they are accompanied with more scary thoughts without my will from my subconscious.

is this a valid promise? I accidentally watched some seconds from that scene and I worry now.

For what it can help you, bear in mind that this life is not about you. God is using you, for HIS own sake. Ride that wave and try to enjoy it, from this viewpoint --that your life is God's work, for God to do as he pleases for his eternal purposes; you cannot impress him with the validity of your performance.

 

[setst777]

The last weeks, compulsions are stronger because, automatically, they are accompanied with some scary thoughts without my will.

I remember having a compulsion not to watch a specific dialogue, I think, from a tv episode on youtube. I do not remember how this compulsion was created, but I think, I remember trying to find which video it was, in order, not to click it in the future.

I do not remember what thoughts without my will popped up or how strong they were and I cant confirm if they were 100% without my will. the thoughts without my will that created this compulsion were about a promise to God not to watch that dialogue.

I worry if the first compulsion was "must watch that scene" and because I was so bored and frustrated to do the compulsion, maybe, my organism changed the compulsion, in a second, from "must watch" to "must not watch". maybe it was like a voice in my head that sugggested me to make a new promise to God not to do the tiring compulsion and this suggestion relieves me for a second and my organism, makes these thoughts that I cant confirm if they are without my will or are both with and without my will. and they are accompanied with more scary thoughts without my will from my subconscious.

is this a valid promise? I accidentally watched some seconds from that scene and I worry now.

Could you please define what you mean by your "organism?" At present, my only thought is that you feel something symbiotic is living inside of you. But can that really be the case? Let me know. Thanks.

 

[Ana the Ist]

The last weeks, compulsions are stronger because, automatically, they are accompanied with some scary thoughts without my will.

I remember having a compulsion not to watch a specific dialogue, I think, from a tv episode on youtube. I do not remember how this compulsion was created, but I think, I remember trying to find which video it was, in order, not to click it in the future.

I do not remember what thoughts without my will popped up or how strong they were and I cant confirm if they were 100% without my will. the thoughts without my will that created this compulsion were about a promise to God not to watch that dialogue.

I worry if the first compulsion was "must watch that scene" and because I was so bored and frustrated to do the compulsion, maybe, my organism changed the compulsion, in a second, from "must watch" to "must not watch". maybe it was like a voice in my head that sugggested me to make a new promise to God not to do the tiring compulsion and this suggestion relieves me for a second and my organism, makes these thoughts that I cant confirm if they are without my will or are both with and without my will. and they are accompanied with more scary thoughts without my will from my subconscious.

is this a valid promise? I accidentally watched some seconds from that scene and I worry now.

Have you gotten any professional help with this problem?