Then maybe you need to be perfected in love? Its so important for a Christian to eventually transition from fear to respect. Then you find rest for your soul; peace with God. You don't do things out fear, you don't do them because that's not who you are, that's not your identity in Christ. When you understand that, it becomes easy to resist the devil.
One time a person said she heard someone else was plotting something against a family member. She said she heard the person say she was going to call people to make a group to go against that family member. But then the woman making the plot said something along the lines of, "Everyone, except Dee (me), she won't cave". You have no idea how happy I was to hear that.