Not Understanding, But Not Questioning

[com7fy8]

I just started trusting him really yesterday. But I have always believed. I just did not put my faith in him.

Thank You, God

 

[Basil the Great]

Some experts on the subject claim that there may well be a genetic component to same sex attraction, at least in some cases, but I do not believe this has been proven as of yet.

 

[Swan7]

Praying the gay away, I am realizing, is not the answer at all. I have to renew my mind by reading his word. But the thing about the Bible is that it doesn't tell us why some sin is sin. It doesn't tell me why two men can't love each other romantically. They can certainly have brotherly love, but romantically they can't because God hates it.

I have had some Christians try to tell why some sin is sin. But I don't care why it is sin. All I know that sin is sin. And if we continue to sin, God throws us into hell. I don't need to understand at all. And I have also have people talk to me about why I have my struggles and they have tried to get to the root my sin struggles. My attitude is now who cares. I don't need to know the root of my same-sex attraction.

Am I wrong for not caring why I choose to not care why God said some sin is sin? Am I wrong for not wanting to know what the root of my sin is?

The Bible, God's Word, indeed tells us and shows us why it is sin to have same-sex attraction. If you read Genesis, right in the beginning of the world He created is by His will - His design. If you keep reading you'll run into the story of Lot, why God brought him and his family out and Judged Sodom and Gomorrah. Throughout the Bible you will run into this orientation again, even in Amos.

If you don't care why it's a sin, why are you posting this? I'm asking genuinely, so please forgive my bluntness. If you don't care about God's way and His values of what He has created and established, why call yourself a Christian? Again, I am being sincere, not accusatory.

I'm not going to tell you what your sin is or where it is rooted, but I can tell you where all sin is rooted from: Pride. I kid you not, I know the saying about "Pride" in today's age and it's quite a mockery of God's creation and what He has done for His remnant.

If I may, I wish to ask you this and you don't have to answer if you don't wish to: Do you love God? Do you care about God? Do you care to have a personal relationship with Him?

Otherwise... why are you trying to follow Him without caring about Who He is?

 

[Introverted1293]

The Bible, God's Word, indeed tells us and shows us why it is sin to have same-sex attraction. If you read Genesis, right in the beginning of the world He created is by His will - His design. If you keep reading you'll run into the story of Lot, why God brought him and his family out and Judged Sodom and Gomorrah. Throughout the Bible you will run into this orientation again, even in Amos.

If you don't care why it's a sin, why are you posting this? I'm asking genuinely, so please forgive my bluntness. If you don't care about God's way and His values of what He has created and established, why call yourself a Christian? Again, I am being sincere, not accusatory.

I'm not going to tell you what your sin is or where it is rooted, but I can tell you where all sin is rooted from: Pride. I kid you not, I know the saying about "Pride" in today's age and it's quite a mockery of God's creation and what He has done for His remnant.

If I may, I wish to ask you this and you don't have to answer: Do you love God? Do you care about God? Do you care to have a personal relationship with Him?

Otherwise... why are you trying to follow Him without caring about Who He is?

I know that you are being very blunt. But I do care that it is sin. But I am not following him very well because I am a weak Christian but I am turning away from sin because of my fear of hell. I just started trusting him yesterday.

I just started crying out to God for his grace and mercy. And yes, I also got rid of my inappropriate content as I am turning away from sin. Why would I do that if I didn't care who God was? God is righteous and holy, and who he is could destroy me if I do not turn away from sin. So of course I care who he is.

What I meant was that I did not understand and that doesn't matter if I understand why certain things are sin. It would be like not understanding why some people go to jail if they sell weed, but you don't do it because you don't want to go to jail, even though you didn't understand. That was my point. But I did not say that I do not care who he is. Of course I care. I just did not understand why some things were sinful, and I did not care why I didn't understand. Of course, I care if it is sinful or not because if I could continue in a lifestyle that is sinful it will destroy me, like send me to hell.

So please, give me some grace before accusing me of not being a true Christian.

 

[Introverted1293]

Some experts on the subject claim that there may well be a genetic component to same sex attraction, at least in some cases, but I do not believe this has been proven as of yet.

I don't know

I know that some people claim that it is genetics and some people claim that it is not. But I do know that there is no scientific evidence that shows that it is genetic.

So, I don't know why some of us struggle with same-sex attraction.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

I am a man that has lust and same-sex attractions. I am starting to realize that I can't pray the gay away, like some people call it. I have to fill my mind with the truth of God's word. Not just the Bible, although that is the most important, but also with other sermons concerning my sin. I realize that I have to memorize scripture and live it out.

I do not understand why homosexuality is sin. But all I know is that if I do it, I will be thrown into hell. And yes, I recognize that lusting is adultery as well. I understand why it is sin to lust after people. It is disrespectful to the people you are lusting after. Think about it. If you had two teenage daughters, and you were given the ability to read people's mind, and you passed a man who had all kinds of dirty thoughts toward your daughters, anybody is going to want to hurt him, even though he may not ever touch your daughters. So, I understand why lust is wrong. It is just disrespectful. And if I am embarrassed to share my thoughts with somebody else, then I probably shouldn't be thinking about what I am thinking. God is always reading my thoughts, and that should be enough to trouble and fear.

Praying the gay away, I am realizing, is not the answer at all. I have to renew my mind by reading his word. But the thing about the Bible is that it doesn't tell us why some sin is sin. It doesn't tell me why two men can't love each other romantically. They can certainly have brotherly love, but romantically they can't because God hates it.

I have had some Christians try to tell why some sin is sin. But I don't care why it is sin. All I know that sin is sin. And if we continue to sin, God throws us into hell. I don't need to understand at all. And I have also have people talk to me about why I have my struggles and they have tried to get to the root my sin struggles. My attitude is now who cares. I don't need to know the root of my same-sex attraction.

Am I wrong for not caring why I choose to not care why God said some sin is sin? Am I wrong for not wanting to know what the root of my sin is?

God knows your heart. He knows you are struggling and he knows you love Him. So leave it at that, "He Knows" your burden. Little by little, if you do not reject Him, He will lessen your burden and easy your conscience. For now, stay the narrow course.
Blessings

 

[Introverted1293]

God knows your heart. He knows you are struggling and he knows you love Him. So leave it at that, "He Knows" your burden. Little by little, if you do not reject Him, He will lessen your burden and lift your countenance. For now, stay the narrow course.
Blessings

Thank you very much.

 

[Kris Jordan]

I just started trusting him really yesterday. But I have always believed. I just did not put my faith in him.

Introverted1293,

That is such awesome news! Welcome to the family of God!

You are just starting on your faith journey, so you can’t expect to have overcome this so quickly. Your salvation is instantaneous but your growth as a believer is a process. Think about it like a newborn baby. The moment they are born, they’re born. But they go through stages of growth and development. Nobody expects a newborn baby to crawl, walk or run. The same is true in your walk with Jesus. So if you’ve trusted Jesus for your salvation and your forgiveness, then you do not need to walk in fear of hell because your sins are remembered no more and Jesus paid the price in full for you already.

So my encouragement to you is just to ask Jesus every day to help you overcome these Temptations, and to strengthen your faith, and to increase your love for him, and to help you to honor him in your choices and actions, etc. He already knows the areas you struggle in and he wants to transform you even more than you want him to. Plus, he has given you the power of the Holy Spirit who lives within you to help you do that!. Then like you said, get into the word and stay in the word every day. Begin reading the New Testament every day and as you do, ask the Holy Spirit to work in your heart and mind to transform it to be more like Jesus. And also, you really need to get involved in a solid, Bible believing, Bible teaching church so that you can be edified and really grow in your faith. The Bible says that faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. That is the Primary Way Jesus is going to grow you up in him.

I have been walking with Jesus for 32 years, but when I first started out, Jesus had a lot of work to do to change my heart and my desires. But the more I immersed myself in him and his word and set my focus on loving him and serving him and pleasing him, Jesus really began to crucify those desires to sin and pleasing him (and wanting to please him) became my default mode. So be encouraged brother. Rome was not built in a day

 

[Swan7]

I know that you are being very blunt. But I do care that it is sin. But I am not following him very well because I am a weak Christian but I am turning away from sin because of my fear of hell. I just started trusting him yesterday.

I just started crying out to God for his grace and mercy. And yes, I also got rid of my inappropriate content as I am turning away from sin. Why would I do that if I didn't care who God was? God is righteous and holy, and who he is could destroy me if I do not turn away from sin. So of course I care who he is.

What I meant was that I did not understand and that doesn't matter if I understand why certain things are sin. It would be like not understanding why some people go to jail if they sell weed, but you don't do it because you don't want to go to jail, even though you didn't understand. That was my point. But I did not say that I do not care who he is. Of course I care. I just did not understand why some things were sinful, and I did not care why I didn't understand. Of course, I care if it is sinful or not because if I could continue in a lifestyle that is sinful it will destroy me, like send me to hell.

So please, give me some grace before accusing me of not being a true Christian.

I was not being accusatory, as I said, I am sorry you took it that way. Nonetheless, welcome to the family of God!

I totally understand what you mean because I went through the same thing in giving my full life to Jesus Christ, Saviour and King, as we all must be born again to walk in His ways and understand them.
I think it does matter if you understand why certain things are sin because that is a way of knowing what is right and wrong. Just like how a child learns from their parents, so do we as born again Christians learn as babes and mature in relationship with God our Father in Heaven.

If you care Who He is then you would also care to understand Him. That's all I was getting at. It's about a relationship with God, not religion. I made many mistakes as a new born Christian - and I still make them today, though not intentionally. God has brought to surface sin in my life I needed to let go of so I could follow Him freely. This is why Jesus Christ says in the Gospel: Matthew 11:28-30. It is sin that keeps us heavy and oppressed.

I've also been afraid of Hell, but the more I learned about God, the more I feared Him with His power and authority. Over time that turned into love. If you put your full faith and trust in Him, you cannot go wrong.

 

[Introverted1293]

I was not being accusatory, as I said, I am sorry you took it that way. Nonetheless, welcome to the family of God!

I totally understand what you mean because I went through the same thing in giving my full life to Jesus Christ, Saviour and King, as we all must be born again to walk in His ways and understand them.
I think it does matter if you understand why certain things are sin because that is a way of knowing what is right and wrong. Just like how a child learns from their parents, so do we as born again Christians learn as babes and mature in relationship with God our Father in Heaven.

If you care Who He is then you would also care to understand Him. That's all I was getting at. It's about a relationship with God, not religion. I made many mistakes as a new born Christian - and I still make them today, though not intentionally. God has brought to surface sin in my life I needed to let go of so I could follow Him freely. This is why Jesus Christ says in the Gospel: Matthew 11:28-30. It is sin that keeps us heavy and oppressed.

I've also been afraid of Hell, but the more I learned about God, the more I feared Him with His power and authority. Over time that turned into love. If you put your full faith and trust in Him, you cannot go wrong.

I'm totally sorry that I took it the wrong way. I am a little sensitive. But I will learn to answer the hard questions. Your questions were not unreasonable, but my attitude was. So please accept my apology for taking your questions the wrong way. And yes you did say that you weren't trying to become accusatory towards me. I do have a little more to say, but I am preoccupied right now. But thank you very much.

And you did answer the question, which was the point of this thread. I asked that if it was wrong that I did not understand why some things were wrong. And you answer the question.

 

[PaulCyp1]

Homosexuality is not a sin, since it is not freely chosen. God's Church has many homosexual members in good standing, who do their best to live their lives according to God's holy will, just like the heterosexual members. Of course, homosexuality does include an attraction towards certain behaviors that do violate the will of God, just like heterosexuality. But simply having the condition is not a violation of God's will, and does not necessitate behaviors that are violations of God's will.

 

[Tone]

Of course, I care if it is sinful or not because if I could continue in a lifestyle that is sinful it will destroy me, like send me to hell.

You are right in abstaining from whatever you know is a sin. He is our Good Creator and He has always instructed us in the way of Life...He is the author of life. When He told Adam and Eve to not eat from that tree it was because of what He said...they would die.

 

[Toro]

I'm totally sorry that I took it the wrong way. I am a little sensitive. But I will learn to answer the hard questions. Your questions were not unreasonable, but my attitude was. So please accept my apology for taking your questions the wrong way. And yes you did say that you weren't trying to become accusatory towards me. I do have a little more to say, but I am preoccupied right now. But thank you very much.

And you did answer the question, which was the point of this thread. I asked that if it was wrong that I did not understand why some things were wrong. And you answer the question.

You have shown to side with wisdom sir.

You owe NOONE the answers to the hard questions but yourself.

Sometimes we simply need someone to remind us what those questions are.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

Homosexuality is not a sin, since it is not freely chosen. God's Church has many homosexual members in good standing, who do their best to live their lives according to God's holy will, just like the heterosexual members. Of course, homosexuality does include an attraction towards certain behaviors that do violate the will of God, just like heterosexuality. But simply having the condition is not a violation of God's will, and does not necessitate behaviors that are violations of God's will.

I am sorry. It is a sin. You are fooling yourself and others. Fornication is a sin and that is what you/they are doing. I am a heterosexual and I comply with Gods will that we marry before engaging in a sexual relationship. God does not recognize marriage between the same sex. I hardly think that a homosexual gets a free pass because I do not. Explain please. If you are speaking of celibate homosexuals then I fully agree.

Obviously this has upset me.

Blessings anyway.

 

[Blade]

Not sure what to say. You asked in public and you get many answers. And as each day passes to call it sin, a spirit, pray God will heal on and on will get said less and less. Now I am responding to you.. no one else. I don't need others to say they were offended. If so I will just PM.

You said "I am starting to realize that I can't pray the gay away," why do you think this? I know way to many stories from men and woman there were gay. That felt exactly as you do. The same thoughts, desires.. thinking there was no hope what so ever. Ask them now Not one desire what so ever for the same sex.

Why is it a sin? Because some book says it is? Because man says it is? To be blunt.. I don't lust after men women kids wealth on and on. Its with in me. I know HIM.. and He is in me.. I know that I know that I know its wrong a sin. You have to know. It is a sin.. God made man and women.. man leave parents and the women leaves hers.. the to come together and become one. To God..He sees one. So to men to women can love each other.. that is no sin. But they can never be one. They can never do what God told man and woman to do "Be fruitful and multiply and fill the earth and subdue it, and have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the heavens and over every living thing that moves on the earth"

So if two men get married.. both can love each other again that is no sin. In that bed.. that is the sin. And then both can never have kids. Someone would have to have some woman out side of marriage to have kids. Then that child will never be both of them. Will they ever tell the child who the REAL mom was is? To take this farther. Jesus? Everything you may have done or thinking.. DOES NOT JUDGE YOU! DOES NOT CONDEMN YOU! He does what no man can.. He KNOWS your heart.

Now I know what this is. If it is born in you.. then praying is worthless. (song playing "with lifted hands by Ryan Stevenson") <-- go listen to it.. it fits right now. Again.. perfect timing..

God is not going to take anything we are not willing to surrender. You need to know its a sin. How? Ask HIM! Jesus is real. You need to believe His word. He hears you when you pray.. you need to believe His word. He can't lie. Ask Him about this. If I say its a sin.. its a spirit what ever.. SO WHAT! I am not GOD. You need to hear from HIM! So you post and ask here and look what happened. How much more will your FATHER answers you. Take the time some day.. repent of anything everything you know you did wrong.. read His word.. pray.. worship Him.. then ASK HIM..tell Him your heart exactly how you feel.. HE DOES NOT JUDGE.. we all do.. He does not. Then know He heard you and wait on Him. He will always backup what He says by His word.

You know.. were not here to please man. And your GOD is not against you not mad for HE is FOR YOU!

 

[Swan7]

I'm totally sorry that I took it the wrong way. I am a little sensitive. But I will learn to answer the hard questions. Your questions were not unreasonable, but my attitude was. So please accept my apology for taking your questions the wrong way. And yes you did say that you weren't trying to become accusatory towards me. I do have a little more to say, but I am preoccupied right now. But thank you very much.

And you did answer the question, which was the point of this thread. I asked that if it was wrong that I did not understand why some things were wrong. And you answer the question.

Hey, it’s ok. We all take things the wrong way sometimes. I’ve done it many times myself... ssshhh!

No worries for being busy, if you have more to say, I’m still here.

 

[DamianWarS]

I am a man that has lust and same-sex attractions. I am starting to realize that I can't pray the gay away, like some people call it. I have to fill my mind with the truth of God's word. Not just the Bible, although that is the most important, but also with other sermons concerning my sin. I realize that I have to memorize scripture and live it out.

I do not understand why homosexuality is sin. But all I know is that if I do it, I will be thrown into hell. And yes, I recognize that lusting is adultery as well. I understand why it is sin to lust after people. It is disrespectful to the people you are lusting after. Think about it. If you had two teenage daughters, and you were given the ability to read people's mind, and you passed a man who had all kinds of dirty thoughts toward your daughters, anybody is going to want to hurt him, even though he may not ever touch your daughters. So, I understand why lust is wrong. It is just disrespectful. And if I am embarrassed to share my thoughts with somebody else, then I probably shouldn't be thinking about what I am thinking. God is always reading my thoughts, and that should be enough to trouble and fear.

Praying the gay away, I am realizing, is not the answer at all. I have to renew my mind by reading his word. But the thing about the Bible is that it doesn't tell us why some sin is sin. It doesn't tell me why two men can't love each other romantically. They can certainly have brotherly love, but romantically they can't because God hates it.

I have had some Christians try to tell why some sin is sin. But I don't care why it is sin. All I know that sin is sin. And if we continue to sin, God throws us into hell. I don't need to understand at all. And I have also have people talk to me about why I have my struggles and they have tried to get to the root my sin struggles. My attitude is now who cares. I don't need to know the root of my same-sex attraction.

Am I wrong for not caring why I choose to not care why God said some sin is sin? Am I wrong for not wanting to know what the root of my sin is?

Jesus tells us "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me." the denial of self can be different for many people but what Christ does not tell us is that our "self" goes away instead it is an intrinsic part of following Christ, as we must deny it and grow into an identity within Christ that overpowers our self-identity

As we follow Christ our identity with ourself shrinks and our identity with Christ grows. the self-identity may always be there (don't expect it to disappear) but over time it shrinks to a point where it doesn't matter and the only thing that matters is our identity in Christ. Inherit in our self-identity and our identity with Christ is going to be conflict and tension so there is nothing abnormal about this but this is why Christ is crucial because we cannot accomplish this redeemed version of ourselves on our own and need Christ to do it.

picture your "self" as a black circle and pile whatever labels or sin or desires you want in there. Now picture Christ as a white circle with it. Which is bigger and which is overpowering which? the goal is to grow the white circle and shrink the black circle so that Christ is so big that it doesn't matter what impulses are inside your self, they may always remain but will be so overshadowed by Christ it simply doesn't matter and has no impact on your life.

 

[joshua 1 9]

I do not understand why

""But from the beginning of creation, God MADE THEM MALE AND FEMALE." (Mark10:6) "7‘For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife," Genesis 1:27 "So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them."

Why is Ellen the husband & why is Elton John the wife? Because God made them male and female. The "Jewish" people say he made them two so they can be united together and become one. This is also refereed to as to "run and return".

God made Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve. When people have gender confusion they can not decide if they want to be a male or a female. What they need to do is unite the male and female in them. If we are male and male or female and female then we have defeated God's purpose for the two to become one. This explains why there is an issue with feminism and chauvinism. This creates division and not the unity that God wants and desires. According to His plan and purpose.

Some how this is suppose to explain how in a spiritual sense Jesus is the Groom and we are the Bride. If we cleanse our flesh so that we are without spot, blemish or wrinkle.

 

[Introverted1293]

""But from the beginning of creation, God MADE THEM MALE AND FEMALE." (Mark10:6) "7‘For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife," Genesis 1:27 "So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them."

Why is Ellen the husband & why is Elton John the wife? Because God made them male and female. The "Jewish" people say he made them two so they can be united together and become one. This is also refereed to as to "run and return".

God made Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve. When people have gender confusion they can not decide if they want to be a male or a female. What they need to do is unite the male and female in them. If we are male and male or female and female then we have defeated God's purpose for the two to become one. This explains why there is an issue with feminism and chauvinism. This creates division and not the unity that God wants and desires. According to His plan and purpose.

Some how this is suppose to explain how in a spiritual sense Jesus is the Groom and we are the Bride. If we cleanse our flesh so that we are without spot, blemish or wrinkle.

Thank you very much for explaining. If I want to have a relationship with God I need to understand who he is. I understand that now.

 

[aiki]

I am a man that has lust and same-sex attractions. I am starting to realize that I can't pray the gay away, like some people call it. I have to fill my mind with the truth of God's word.

Yes, you ought to fill your mind with God's word. But, the answer to your sinful attraction is surrender to God moment-by-moment, asking Him for His mind and heart, not your own, consciously yielding to His will and way in the mundane events (and temptations) of your life and trusting that He will transform you accordingly.

God's word defines what the truth is about God, about you, and about your relationship to God. Where what you think and feel diverges from the truths of God's word, you must, in surrender to God, stand unmoved upon His truth. It is in the power of God's truth to expose and cut down lies, deceptions, falsehoods, that much of its value lies.

Not just the Bible, although that is the most important, but also with other sermons concerning my sin. I realize that I have to memorize scripture and live it out.

No where in all of Scripture will you ever read that you ought to focus upon your sin. Doing so is the surest way to being shaped to it in your thinking and behaviour. The Bible urges us to look away from the World, and ourselves, and the temptations of the devil to Christ and to fix our eyes steadfastly upon him. And as you do, you will be inevitably conformed to his likeness. God has made us to be conformed to our focus. This is the principle upon which all advertising relies. The more you dwell upon a thing in your mind, the more power it has to influence and shape your thinking and behaviour. So, make sure your mind is fixed upon good and godly things!

I do not understand why homosexuality is sin.

Read Romans 1. Read Genesis 1.

It is disrespectful to the people you are lusting after.

It is also disobedient to the command of God. Your sin is always an offense to Him and against Him.

So, I understand why lust is wrong. It is just disrespectful.

It also was why Jesus suffered and died on the cross. Disrespect is among the least of the reasons why your sin is sin.

Praying the gay away, I am realizing, is not the answer at all.

It is not biblical, that's for sure. God's strategy for dealing with all sin is spelled out in Romans 6:1-18. I would urge you to read it very carefully and learn to live in the light of its truth.

It doesn't tell me why two men can't love each other romantically.

Because it is a perversion of God's design. Just consider your own anatomy and that of a woman's (though, not for too long) and ask yourself why, if God had wanted homosexual relationships to occur, He did not equip us to have sex in such a manner. Procreation is a core purpose of sex. The complementarity biologically and psychologically of men and women is divinely ordained. Homosexuality denies and corrupts this divinely-ordained complementarity.

And I have also have people talk to me about why I have my struggles and they have tried to get to the root my sin struggles. My attitude is now who cares. I don't need to know the root of my same-sex attraction.

If you don't know what the root of all your sin is, it is going to be impossible to pull it out of your life. Homosexuality - and all sin - is the by-product of the "old man," carnal Self, that wants its own way rather than God's, that wants immediate gratification, refusing to consider eternity to come, that is selfish and shakes its fist in God's face. This is the ultimate Source of all your sin, not just the sin of homosexuality. It cannot be improved and so God has put it to death upon Christ's cross. Again, read Romans 6:1-18. You can run around all your life trying to stamp out sin, but doing so is like putting bandages on a cancerous tumor. The tumor is merely a symptom; the real problem is the cancer, and no amount of bandaging will eradicate it. So, too, our sin. It is merely a symptom of Self alive and well and ruling within. Stamping out each sin never deals with the cause of the sin. Until Self is dealt with God's way, through the cross of Jesus, the symptoms of sin that Self produces will never end.

 

[Pádraigín Ní Saorlaith]

I am a man that has lust and same-sex attractions. I am starting to realize that I can't pray the gay away, like some people call it. I have to fill my mind with the truth of God's word. Not just the Bible, although that is the most important, but also with other sermons concerning my sin. I realize that I have to memorize scripture and live it out.

I do not understand why homosexuality is sin. But all I know is that if I do it, I will be thrown into hell. And yes, I recognize that lusting is adultery as well. I understand why it is sin to lust after people. It is disrespectful to the people you are lusting after. Think about it. If you had two teenage daughters, and you were given the ability to read people's mind, and you passed a man who had all kinds of dirty thoughts toward your daughters, anybody is going to want to hurt him, even though he may not ever touch your daughters. So, I understand why lust is wrong. It is just disrespectful. And if I am embarrassed to share my thoughts with somebody else, then I probably shouldn't be thinking about what I am thinking. God is always reading my thoughts, and that should be enough to trouble and fear.

Praying the gay away, I am realizing, is not the answer at all. I have to renew my mind by reading his word. But the thing about the Bible is that it doesn't tell us why some sin is sin. It doesn't tell me why two men can't love each other romantically. They can certainly have brotherly love, but romantically they can't because God hates it.

I have had some Christians try to tell why some sin is sin. But I don't care why it is sin. All I know that sin is sin. And if we continue to sin, God throws us into hell. I don't need to understand at all. And I have also have people talk to me about why I have my struggles and they have tried to get to the root my sin struggles. My attitude is now who cares. I don't need to know the root of my same-sex attraction.

Am I wrong for not caring why I choose to not care why God said some sin is sin? Am I wrong for not wanting to know what the root of my sin is?

I don't think you're wrong to not care why God said some sin is sin. I know one Catholic woman with SSA who described her decision to be celibate as part of pursuing Christ by saying something like, "[Sex] was just something else I'd have to give up." I think the Bible does give some reasons for it outside of the verses telling us not to have homosexual sex when it outlines its image of marriage, but in any case there are some things that we have to trust that God knows what is best for us even when the world says we need to give in to our desire to look like everyone else.

I don't think it's wrong to not care about why you have same-sex attractions. Knowing that we are all stained by original sin has always been a sound enough explanation for me. I don't see the point in trying to figure out if there's any other reason either (and as a same-sex attracted person, I highly doubt that there is any other reason).

If it gives you any peace about God knowing our thoughts, remember that, as an all-knowing and all-seeing God, He has also seen it all before. He isn't surprised by what you're going through, and He's not about to abandon you in your struggle, because you are His child.