Should I confess to my parents about my past sin or do it in a few years? I doubt they will understand now and will most likely punish me or be very angry and not trust me.. and I'm very scared. I'm still only in highschool and I've already gotten so deep into sin, I'm so ashamed of it. Talking about being molested in the past and my depression and past suicidal thoughts and bad friends. I want to do public speaking in the future and tell my story but my parents need to be aware first right? And idk if I should tell EVERYTHING. I feel like as long as the sin is not eating you inside and you confessed to a pastor or friend and you repented that it's okay to keep it inside. Not everyone has to know right? Idk what to do tbh. I repented with my whole heart on Saturday and I feel so happy.. yesterday I was praising God and started to cry because I was so happy that I am forgiven and can start new again. I'm born again.
But I feel ashamed too, ashamed of my past sin. I'm scared of other people will think of me or look down at me or say mean things. I don't want the rest of my family to find out, like my relatives. Because they usually spread lots of rumors and talk behind people's backs sometimes. I feel like I'm being too open and that I need to talk less because I'm still healing and I'm not ready for the whole world to know my past. I've been thinking about this for so long and it's bothering me. I'm really afraid. My cousin told me to tell them but that I could do it in a few years when I am more mature and after I get baptized next year. So that they can see that I am healed and that I'm growing and that that was in the past and I'm different.
But I feel ashamed too, ashamed of my past sin. I'm scared of other people will think of me or look down at me or say mean things. I don't want the rest of my family to find out, like my relatives. Because they usually spread lots of rumors and talk behind people's backs sometimes. I feel like I'm being too open and that I need to talk less because I'm still healing and I'm not ready for the whole world to know my past. I've been thinking about this for so long and it's bothering me. I'm really afraid. My cousin told me to tell them but that I could do it in a few years when I am more mature and after I get baptized next year. So that they can see that I am healed and that I'm growing and that that was in the past and I'm different.