The reason why you suffer so much is because of the truth that is your reality. You hate life while it is a gift of God. You hate yourself while God and others love you, you are depressed because you see no good in life and question the purpose.
To be renewed in your mind is what you are after, as you build yourself into your depressive angry state so you can let Jesus get you out.
See the reason for you being born is for you to flee your corrupt and sinful nature and escape it through Christ and for Christ to get something beautiful out of it. If you sin and then look at the sinner and hate the sinner then you act in anti-Christ manner. Jesus doesn't operate that way. He wants us to be saved from our sin - every day again!
So please lady bring your anger to Christ. Let Him dismantle it with His loving truth giving you grace to eat. When we accept grace from God then self hate dies and love for God comes and dwells in our hearts. It is His love that makes us caring and nurturing people.
So rather than hating this world be like your heavenly Father and love it and forgive people their sins and go out and love God your neighbour and yourself to be able to love your neighbour. Do this with God's love and your life will flourish and your depression disappear.
To cultivate love instead of more anger that is how you can be saved from this affliction. So do bring your angry times to Jesus and leave them there and begin to love instead of hate and see what happens from there.
An invitation to The Chosen.
God's Love will not take or will
you to conform to rules or demand
which imprison, enslave, burn or kill you.
God's Love will not pervert what's Good
The Lord loves truthfully Wise and Good.
True Love was, is and always will be Good!
In God's Love you are free to be right!
In His love everything is good proper and kind.
He loves all who love good and true to rule!
His Love is caring, providing, and sharing.
His Love always enjoys and protects good life.
His love rules even when bad life has being in us!
Hear Jesus call - 'Come join up with us all!
Leave whatever ties you down and be free
loving good life with all God's own to be.'
To the rest in your heart God's asks
how long will you tarry in the darkness?
Please leave such bad existence within.
For life must not, no never should, or would, or could,
be forceful, rude, prideful, arrogant, selfish, lustful
or otherwise be untrue to God's loving truth.
Neither should life be hurting or ill,
hungry, oppressed, despised, hated
or otherwise have existence in wrong.
Please hand your Bad Life over to Jesus
Humbly ask for His Good Life back in return
and go love God, self and neighbour with Joy.
The Church knows that Jesus is coming soon
All bad life will be our shameful past then,
so please leave your bad life while you can!
Love