- Oct 6, 2017
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Basically years ago i drank heavy and decided to quit. I was sober almost 4 years and I ended up picking it up again.
Nowadays I know that self control is key
My issue is everytime I drink whether its one or two etc. I feel guilty, like im not living to my full potential as a christian.
I feel it is a conviction of the Holy spirit.
Im at the point where I dont want to drink forever I do want to eventually quit.
But I honestly enjoy having some beers once in a while.
My thing is, I do ask God daily to forgive me because I do feel its wrong.
I feel Im living in sin and because I want to keep drinking and think about drinking the following day or even in the future it makes me feel that my repenting and asking for forgiveness isnt sincere or something and im living in sin and ill go to hell.
The other day I was sitting there and I opened my bible and it opened to jeremiah and it was talking about judgement and apostate and it made me think the lord is going to judge me,
I worry will he give me some disease or something bad happen in my family or in general because im doing wrong..
I remember reading somewhere that people are judged more for knowing what is right to do than people that are blind to it or something.
I dont want to drink forever I really dont but I do enjoy sipping some beers once in a while.
I want to live the fullest potential to the christian walk but this always gets me hung up.
I feel I lose intimacy with the Lord and Im not saved or something..
I remember reading somewhere "whatever is not of faith is sin" and I always get convicted by that.
Because I do feel wrong.
I think to myself if people knew I was drinking again would I make them stumble?
Or just because I have a drink, would that cause someone else to excess.
My wife and I are going to germany because her parents bought us a trip for our honeymoon and I would like to enjoy some beverages there etc. but I just dont want to dishonor God or be punished.
I feel im living in sin and even if I ask for forgiveness its not forgiven or something because I know it wrong to be doing to begin with.
I just dont want to die and go to hell or something.
I genuinely want to serve God and live right, I just enjoy a beer here and there or wine etc.
I just worry and i know it sounds weird but in this mindset im in
I feel i could be in hell one day and be worried and think back i should of lived better.
Or I would be in hell and be like I knew I should of live differently.
Obviously if I feel that way currently it should be enough to scare me to not drink
its just the idea am i living in sin?
Nowadays I know that self control is key
My issue is everytime I drink whether its one or two etc. I feel guilty, like im not living to my full potential as a christian.
I feel it is a conviction of the Holy spirit.
Im at the point where I dont want to drink forever I do want to eventually quit.
But I honestly enjoy having some beers once in a while.
My thing is, I do ask God daily to forgive me because I do feel its wrong.
I feel Im living in sin and because I want to keep drinking and think about drinking the following day or even in the future it makes me feel that my repenting and asking for forgiveness isnt sincere or something and im living in sin and ill go to hell.
The other day I was sitting there and I opened my bible and it opened to jeremiah and it was talking about judgement and apostate and it made me think the lord is going to judge me,
I worry will he give me some disease or something bad happen in my family or in general because im doing wrong..
I remember reading somewhere that people are judged more for knowing what is right to do than people that are blind to it or something.
I dont want to drink forever I really dont but I do enjoy sipping some beers once in a while.
I want to live the fullest potential to the christian walk but this always gets me hung up.
I feel I lose intimacy with the Lord and Im not saved or something..
I remember reading somewhere "whatever is not of faith is sin" and I always get convicted by that.
Because I do feel wrong.
I think to myself if people knew I was drinking again would I make them stumble?
Or just because I have a drink, would that cause someone else to excess.
My wife and I are going to germany because her parents bought us a trip for our honeymoon and I would like to enjoy some beverages there etc. but I just dont want to dishonor God or be punished.
I feel im living in sin and even if I ask for forgiveness its not forgiven or something because I know it wrong to be doing to begin with.
I just dont want to die and go to hell or something.
I genuinely want to serve God and live right, I just enjoy a beer here and there or wine etc.
I just worry and i know it sounds weird but in this mindset im in
I feel i could be in hell one day and be worried and think back i should of lived better.
Or I would be in hell and be like I knew I should of live differently.
Obviously if I feel that way currently it should be enough to scare me to not drink
its just the idea am i living in sin?