- Jan 6, 2018
- 60
- 60
- 30
- Country
- Brazil
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- In Relationship
Hi,
My name is Felipe, I'm 24 years old and since adolescence I have suicidal thoughts. I've already looked for help, but I'm afraid to take medicine forever (I do not have the money to go to therapy and the psychiatrist at the same time).
I have serious social interaction problems, I am an only child and my parents have always been overprotective of everything.
I was born in the church, then I stopped going to adolescence and now I go back to attend.
I feel very bad about having difficulty in social interaction, I also feel like crap.
I do not have a good relationship with God, I can not even relate to other humans, I have a hard time believing that there is hope for my case, I have a hard time believing that God cares about my daily life since no one ever cared. I'm not talking about physical healing or money, that's not my problem, I mean I really feel very bad when there are people around me. I live in Rio de Janeiro and I never went to the beach, I went to the movies for the first time at age 22, I have to make a lot of mental effort to get out of my house, work is torture for me, I totally exhaust myself.
I am calm on the outside, I learned not to cause problems for the people / my parents, I learned to always avoid the fights, but inside, I feel very angry, I feel burn.
I try to pray, however, day to day makes me very discouraged, there are many things inside me, I do not feel a man (I do not have an example at home, my father only knows how to bow his head to my mother, she is explosive and he is calm), I wonder why I'm still alive, I've lived on autopilot but I'm tired of doing things just to please my parents.
Thanks in advance.
My name is Felipe, I'm 24 years old and since adolescence I have suicidal thoughts. I've already looked for help, but I'm afraid to take medicine forever (I do not have the money to go to therapy and the psychiatrist at the same time).
I have serious social interaction problems, I am an only child and my parents have always been overprotective of everything.
I was born in the church, then I stopped going to adolescence and now I go back to attend.
I feel very bad about having difficulty in social interaction, I also feel like crap.
I do not have a good relationship with God, I can not even relate to other humans, I have a hard time believing that there is hope for my case, I have a hard time believing that God cares about my daily life since no one ever cared. I'm not talking about physical healing or money, that's not my problem, I mean I really feel very bad when there are people around me. I live in Rio de Janeiro and I never went to the beach, I went to the movies for the first time at age 22, I have to make a lot of mental effort to get out of my house, work is torture for me, I totally exhaust myself.
I am calm on the outside, I learned not to cause problems for the people / my parents, I learned to always avoid the fights, but inside, I feel very angry, I feel burn.
I try to pray, however, day to day makes me very discouraged, there are many things inside me, I do not feel a man (I do not have an example at home, my father only knows how to bow his head to my mother, she is explosive and he is calm), I wonder why I'm still alive, I've lived on autopilot but I'm tired of doing things just to please my parents.
Thanks in advance.