- Jun 28, 2017
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
So recently I went to the United Kingdom with a group. There I met a girl who at first glance, she seemed like a normal girl. I was definitely interested in her based on looks. No doubt about it that this blue eyed blonde was absolutely gorgeous. But there were certain factors that made me feel a bit ishy about it. She had a potty mouth (not to say I don't, so it meant a bit less to me), she kinda seemed a bit promiscuous, like she would be up to do some hanky-panky stuff. But I decided I'd still talk to her, because I mean what's the worst that could happen.
So I talk to her, and I learn that she is a poet, musician (a coping strategy), as well as a mathematician (When I heard this I was surprised, "A girl, like math! Girls usually never like math! This girl might be something special!" and boy was she; there were two sides to the coin). Most importantly I learned, she is a very intelligent, bombastic, and vivacious girl putting up a person of a bad kid, because her father was an abusive alcoholic, her brother was a convict. To put it in a nutshell she didn't have a stable household. She would then tell me she also tried to kill her mother (because she would not let her see her brother that got out of prison [her brother is her best friend]), and that she used to do cocaine, but now she just smokes.
I would ask her to promise me that she would try her best to go with the good and leave the bad behind, to see righteousness; and she would promise me that.
I believed, and still believe every word she said, whether they were truthful or deceitful. She was one of the only girls I've ever let hug me (I believe hugging should be done only with those intimate or close to you because otherwise, it reduces it's value).
Well after getting to know her I feelings started to arise for this girl (she thought I was cool, and a super sweet guy), but when thinking about it, it didn't seem one of the best investments to do. I was confused. I was torn, whether I pursue this girl who I feel I can help, who from my perception was just a rolling stone on the lost highway, or whether I was to stay away, for what if this girl was psychotic, and would attempt to kill me, like she did with her mother.
Time passed, and I went back home. I regretted not getting any contact information, so I thought maybe I'd try to get in contact, but I thought "why?"
So I prayed to God, and I asked him whether I should pursue her, whether she's a diamond. That night I had a dream I was in a car accident, and also I was hiding from a monster destroying buildings (Basically Godzilla). I had never before had a dream in which I was in a car accident or anything similar to mass destruction. I took this dream as an answer to my prayers, that I should not pursue her, for it would only lead to disaster, and grief.
I know what I will do, but I would like to hear you're opinions, because I am still confused... a bit. I do have one question though, how do I soothe my conflicting emotions?
So I talk to her, and I learn that she is a poet, musician (a coping strategy), as well as a mathematician (When I heard this I was surprised, "A girl, like math! Girls usually never like math! This girl might be something special!" and boy was she; there were two sides to the coin). Most importantly I learned, she is a very intelligent, bombastic, and vivacious girl putting up a person of a bad kid, because her father was an abusive alcoholic, her brother was a convict. To put it in a nutshell she didn't have a stable household. She would then tell me she also tried to kill her mother (because she would not let her see her brother that got out of prison [her brother is her best friend]), and that she used to do cocaine, but now she just smokes.
I would ask her to promise me that she would try her best to go with the good and leave the bad behind, to see righteousness; and she would promise me that.
I believed, and still believe every word she said, whether they were truthful or deceitful. She was one of the only girls I've ever let hug me (I believe hugging should be done only with those intimate or close to you because otherwise, it reduces it's value).
Well after getting to know her I feelings started to arise for this girl (she thought I was cool, and a super sweet guy), but when thinking about it, it didn't seem one of the best investments to do. I was confused. I was torn, whether I pursue this girl who I feel I can help, who from my perception was just a rolling stone on the lost highway, or whether I was to stay away, for what if this girl was psychotic, and would attempt to kill me, like she did with her mother.
Time passed, and I went back home. I regretted not getting any contact information, so I thought maybe I'd try to get in contact, but I thought "why?"
So I prayed to God, and I asked him whether I should pursue her, whether she's a diamond. That night I had a dream I was in a car accident, and also I was hiding from a monster destroying buildings (Basically Godzilla). I had never before had a dream in which I was in a car accident or anything similar to mass destruction. I took this dream as an answer to my prayers, that I should not pursue her, for it would only lead to disaster, and grief.
I know what I will do, but I would like to hear you're opinions, because I am still confused... a bit. I do have one question though, how do I soothe my conflicting emotions?
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