I don't want to start WW3 here. I am aware of the divisions on belief of baptism. But this is a question that is starting to....bother me. So I am looking for advice. Let me give some background...
Back when I was about 13 or 14, my dad allowed me to choose my own church, prior to that he made me go to the catholic church because that was what I was raised in, and he wanted some continuity (long story involving an ugly divorce and custody battle). After some rather interesting visiting around, I ended up in a little country church that my best friend went too. When I say little, I mean little. Maybe 10 families? 20 people at the most. Mostly I just went to be with my friend. At times, my dad went with me. Sometimes I went alone.
But there was a nice lady there, and I was basically at that time a motherless girl. I adored her, she was always very friendly, very kind to me. And when one day she asked me and my friend to sit up front with her. Of course I was absolutely delighted. After the sermon - of which I paid absolutely zero attention too, she asked me to pray for her. I happily agreed - anything at all for her attention. I honestly don't remember what was prayed, or if I said anything. Afterwards, she told me to go tell the pastor (during the alter call - baptist church here lol) that I had prayed with her.
That was more uncertain ground, but I did so anyway. I had no idea what to expect, and was somewhat alarmed to find out my salvation announced by the happy pastor and that I would be baptized that night. My dad happened to be there that day, and I could tell he looked a bit alarmed too (my dad WAS a christian).
Afterwards he took time to question me - and I made sure to give all the right answers. I was already committed. My best friend was getting baptized (again) with me. I succumbed to peer pressure. And I was promptly baptized with much enthusiasm.
Now I will be honest. At that time, I think I tried to be a christian. But there was nothing to back that up, and I ended up doing my own thing after that up till now.
But now, as a Christian, I am...struggling. I will be quite honest. I am overweight. I have social anxiety. I don't want to go through that in front of a crowd of people I don't know. The whole idea of it makes me want to curl up in bed and never come out to see sunshine again. I also don't think I need to be baptized, because I already have been. Twice, if you count when I was a baby.
But I also want to be honest with myself, and I am not sure if I am just trying to convince myself I don't need to be baptized, or if I really don't need to be.
Help. Like I said, I don't want to start a fight or argument. I just want your advice, complete with reasons and bible verses if you have them so I can research them. I am still learning the bible and you can save me some work lol.
Edit: I don't know what denomination I would fall under. I am sure that makes this all so much easier.
Back when I was about 13 or 14, my dad allowed me to choose my own church, prior to that he made me go to the catholic church because that was what I was raised in, and he wanted some continuity (long story involving an ugly divorce and custody battle). After some rather interesting visiting around, I ended up in a little country church that my best friend went too. When I say little, I mean little. Maybe 10 families? 20 people at the most. Mostly I just went to be with my friend. At times, my dad went with me. Sometimes I went alone.
But there was a nice lady there, and I was basically at that time a motherless girl. I adored her, she was always very friendly, very kind to me. And when one day she asked me and my friend to sit up front with her. Of course I was absolutely delighted. After the sermon - of which I paid absolutely zero attention too, she asked me to pray for her. I happily agreed - anything at all for her attention. I honestly don't remember what was prayed, or if I said anything. Afterwards, she told me to go tell the pastor (during the alter call - baptist church here lol) that I had prayed with her.
That was more uncertain ground, but I did so anyway. I had no idea what to expect, and was somewhat alarmed to find out my salvation announced by the happy pastor and that I would be baptized that night. My dad happened to be there that day, and I could tell he looked a bit alarmed too (my dad WAS a christian).
Afterwards he took time to question me - and I made sure to give all the right answers. I was already committed. My best friend was getting baptized (again) with me. I succumbed to peer pressure. And I was promptly baptized with much enthusiasm.
Now I will be honest. At that time, I think I tried to be a christian. But there was nothing to back that up, and I ended up doing my own thing after that up till now.
But now, as a Christian, I am...struggling. I will be quite honest. I am overweight. I have social anxiety. I don't want to go through that in front of a crowd of people I don't know. The whole idea of it makes me want to curl up in bed and never come out to see sunshine again. I also don't think I need to be baptized, because I already have been. Twice, if you count when I was a baby.
But I also want to be honest with myself, and I am not sure if I am just trying to convince myself I don't need to be baptized, or if I really don't need to be.
Help. Like I said, I don't want to start a fight or argument. I just want your advice, complete with reasons and bible verses if you have them so I can research them. I am still learning the bible and you can save me some work lol.
Edit: I don't know what denomination I would fall under. I am sure that makes this all so much easier.
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