- Aug 30, 2008
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Hi all,
If I can could I ask you to put me on your regular prayer list for a while. By that I mean maybe not just a five minute prayer but some thing more substantial.
I am a person who wants to please God deeply, I pray a lot, and do my best to serve the LORD. My life is 100% at peace, I love God and love life. However I have a past that haunts me, many years ago I got messed up with the law and ended up on a forensic order, which is a legal way of saying you acted insanely. Now if you really knew me, deeply I mean, you would know that today I am 100% healed and are far from any form of insanity. I live a peace with my self and others. However due to the way I acted in the past some people refuse to forgive me. I have a situation with my brother where he is always judging me, I have only to lift an eye brow so to speak, and I am accused off being about to loose it. He also judges my spiritual experiences in such a way that I feel he sees me as a devil. To me this builds up tons of hurt, and there are time I can no longer contain his judgment, so I do get angry with him, which then just reinforces his wrongly held view that I have a mental problem. I have prayed, and prayed about this situation, but there has been no change. Please try to understand how much hurt this causes me, I know who I am in Christ, I know the liberty and the freedom Christ has given me, to have my family who believe in God class me as insane drives me mad. God has done so much good for me, but when man classes it as a devil it kills me inside.
If I can could I ask you to put me on your regular prayer list for a while. By that I mean maybe not just a five minute prayer but some thing more substantial.
I am a person who wants to please God deeply, I pray a lot, and do my best to serve the LORD. My life is 100% at peace, I love God and love life. However I have a past that haunts me, many years ago I got messed up with the law and ended up on a forensic order, which is a legal way of saying you acted insanely. Now if you really knew me, deeply I mean, you would know that today I am 100% healed and are far from any form of insanity. I live a peace with my self and others. However due to the way I acted in the past some people refuse to forgive me. I have a situation with my brother where he is always judging me, I have only to lift an eye brow so to speak, and I am accused off being about to loose it. He also judges my spiritual experiences in such a way that I feel he sees me as a devil. To me this builds up tons of hurt, and there are time I can no longer contain his judgment, so I do get angry with him, which then just reinforces his wrongly held view that I have a mental problem. I have prayed, and prayed about this situation, but there has been no change. Please try to understand how much hurt this causes me, I know who I am in Christ, I know the liberty and the freedom Christ has given me, to have my family who believe in God class me as insane drives me mad. God has done so much good for me, but when man classes it as a devil it kills me inside.