I am scared and concerned for myself because I know Christ is going to judge the world and I will be brought before Him and give an account of my life to Him, and I just hope that I was saved and am a good enough person so He lets me off the hook easy without any heavy punishments.
I have examined myself many times and I know how I am as a person. No one knows me better than myself. I can be loving and have a strong sense of justice but I wonder if God is going to look at my negative qualities and say "she was lazy...and proud, and sometimes arrogant, having confidence and trusting in herself too much and not in Me." Because I admit that I have in my lifetime struggled with arrogance, and laziness, and having too much confidence in myself.
You don't know how much I don't want to hear Him say that about me. Just thinking about it is like a knife in my heart.
It was always my dream of becoming a saint and seeing Him and getting to meet God in person because He is so famous, but I want it to be on good terms and I don't want Him to treat me like I am the enemy just because I am still in my sins.
The thought of having someone judge me is frighting to me, because there may be punishment. And punishment frightens me, so I am concerned, for myself and everyone else. Some people will not be going to Heaven, if they are not saved. I fear for those people. They will be going to Hell, to the place where no one wants to go its so horrible.
I wonder why I am afraid of Hell so much. Some people joke about it, but I've always taken it seriously and tried not to think about it because I know it's the "bad place." People act like they don't understand what Hell is really all about. No one wants to go there, it's not a fun and happy place. Yet they joke about like they think it is. They're wrong.
Help me not be afraid.
I have examined myself many times and I know how I am as a person. No one knows me better than myself. I can be loving and have a strong sense of justice but I wonder if God is going to look at my negative qualities and say "she was lazy...and proud, and sometimes arrogant, having confidence and trusting in herself too much and not in Me." Because I admit that I have in my lifetime struggled with arrogance, and laziness, and having too much confidence in myself.
You don't know how much I don't want to hear Him say that about me. Just thinking about it is like a knife in my heart.
It was always my dream of becoming a saint and seeing Him and getting to meet God in person because He is so famous, but I want it to be on good terms and I don't want Him to treat me like I am the enemy just because I am still in my sins.
The thought of having someone judge me is frighting to me, because there may be punishment. And punishment frightens me, so I am concerned, for myself and everyone else. Some people will not be going to Heaven, if they are not saved. I fear for those people. They will be going to Hell, to the place where no one wants to go its so horrible.
I wonder why I am afraid of Hell so much. Some people joke about it, but I've always taken it seriously and tried not to think about it because I know it's the "bad place." People act like they don't understand what Hell is really all about. No one wants to go there, it's not a fun and happy place. Yet they joke about like they think it is. They're wrong.
Help me not be afraid.
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