No you don't understand.
If you look at your life from the outside. What kind of things are you involved in? What kind of thoughts do you have? What kind of secrets are in your life?
What kind of people do you hang out with?
Doing what the Bible says is wrong, hardens are hearts against God. Over time we are so blinded by sins that we can not see the love or goodness of God. Niether do we feel Him.
God is never hiding from us, WE try to hide from Him. We want to do what we want to do, the world looks appealing to us, so we head in this direction.
That's all there is too it. The only way you all will start to see God or to feel Him, is by changing your life and giving your heart to God.
I know fear is overtaking you and its what is stopping you too.
Happens to me too, don't worry.
The evidence is His Creation, the world, the animals, the humans, the planets, etc.